http://slow.writerscafe.org/Beauty%20Undefined The original writings of author Alicia Hirshey en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775986492 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Read authors note http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/1081949/ In the weeks that followed, the pregnancy seemed to be going flawlessly. There were minimal fights and mine and john's little life seemed to be falling into place. I knew that it would only be a matter of time until I was able to moving us out on our own and live happily ever after. We spent a lot t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/1067272/ Dear Journal    Today is my doctors appointment, it is a new doctor so let us hope that all goes  well and that I like her because I hate doctor looking, it is always such a pain in the a*s to find the perfect doctor. I am twelve weeks and flipping out, I wonder if she will be as.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/1067085/ After walking out of the courtroom, I felt a sense of new light and a sense of loneliness that accompanied it. I had to get to the truck where john was waiting. I had to get there as fast as possible. I couldn’t let these people get to me anymore than they have. I couldn’t let them know .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/1065275/ There is no need.... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/984198/ Trying to conquerThis mountain is far to steepAll the time slippingCatch the winds firey heat~*~  http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/893561/ Read authors note. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/890662/ Never confuse a single defeat with a final defeat.  ~F. Scott Fitzgerald~*~*~*~Within these eyesLay shrouds of painEndless longingFore-longed shameLittle fairytalesMask the painIn her eyesShe plays the gameWhimsical glitterHides in the rainRunning awayMasking the painTime is all knowingShe.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/837601/ Notions of sadnessFill your headLeaving with thoughts"I'm better off dead."Tiny voicesYou long to ceaseNever once knowingWhat is waitingUnder the sheetsTimes are crazyRough waves aheadNo signs of stopping"I'm better off dead"Woman I loveHas nothing left for meDrug me downIn this bottomless sea... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/834342/ One little markEasy to bareWho in their mind Would even careTempest floodingMy mind growing grimThrowing away thoughtsMere memories of himFlood gates openRelease the tears That now floodCatching the imageCovered in bloodHide behind the smilesFrom truths I dare not seeFighting dailyTrying to stay fre.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/810274/ Read authors note http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/803339/ Read authors note http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/799247/ I couldn’t contain this new sense of excitement that had overcome me by john’s reaction. I had to tell someone and who else besides my two best friends. Robin and Cristin. Robin wasn’t as excited as I had originally hoped she would be but I made due and tried not to get to mad at h.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/791979/ Read authors note http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/791189/ Read Authors note http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/788963/ Months passed and me and Justin rarely spoke, when we did we spent it fighting because I didn’t want to come home. For the most part I was happy, well as happy as any mother who had lost her son could be. Christmas had come and passed as did new years and I found myself visiting my mom the wee.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/788881/ Asking for the divorce was a lot harder than I thought it would have been. It took everything I had to bring myself to call Justin and tell him that I had decided what I wanted and it was no longer him, I wanted to be with john, I wanted him completely out of the picture. I picked up the phone and s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/787965/ Lay me downOn a bed of rosesThrow me awayIn a sea of dismayHold me closeAs the storm clouds Refuse strayCover me up With longing and Despair Whisper gentlyLetting me knowYou still careI will face the worldGladly aloneAs long as you helpCatch the first stoneCast away m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/786496/ The weeks that followed didn’t consist of much, other than me loafing around the house in my depression and dragging those around me down too.  When I wasn’t crying, I was laying in bed and despite john’s efforts, refused to get up, eat or move. I could feel him getting fed up.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/784506/ For my boys, Nathaniel and Matthew http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/781601/ Packing for the move was a breeze and it helped that Justin had no idea it was coming. I took him to work like I did everyday but today was different. Today when he finally decided to come home, me and Nathaniel would be gone. After dropping Justin off, I went back to the house that I rented from hi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/778388/ Read Authors note http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/777661/ It was nearing the end of summer and I seemed to be spending more and more time with John, it was like no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t get the guy out of my head. 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I've been trained to love my darkness." " Lady Gaga"And now, I'm just trying to change the world, one sequin at a time." 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That is who we are, the true dreamers."-Me~*~Expressionless facesHave come and goneWith agesTowers are crumbling Falling short of me~*~Love is fadingLight is glisteningLife is beckoning to me.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/751879/ Read authors note. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/750546/ Read Authors Note http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Beauty-Undefined/748838/ The first couple weeks of our marriage flew by effortlessly. We had finally settled into our camper, Jonathan moved in with us and things were going so great. 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