http://slow.writerscafe.org/blu1997berry The original writings of author Fallen From Grace en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776016748 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 I gave you everything, even when I couldn't do anything for myself.I should had know that you were gonna break me beyond anything that has ever had broken me.No matter how much you hurt me physically and mentally. I still stayed with you.Maybe it was my fault for staying. I saw how broken you were a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/2104303/ When night hits and the darkness creep in, it soothes my soul. Bittersweet that my thoughts get hectic. With all the pain and emotions that I just can't figure out. It haunts me. Always dragging me down to it's darkness. I can't help but think of everything. I remember all the sadness and the pain. .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/2005798/ I don't believe in love for many reasons. I watched my parents love failed many times. My first love disappeared and won't ever come back. But I tried so hard. I tried in every relationship, to give them the best of myself I can. Even if i'm scared. I push myself over the edge. But as I watched all .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1976309/ What is love?How would you know if you're significant other actually does love you?"I love you", when I say it too him it stings my chest.Then my mind clouds with so many questions.Do I really do?I don't think so.Whenever I say it too you. I know my true feelings are uncertain and tells me I don't.I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1975994/ Waking up today to get the tickets for Texas. Going down to visit my mom for 2 weeks. She is now living in Texas with her new boyfriend. I woke up with my boyfriend next to me. Can't ever get him up early for jack s**t. We had an argument at dinner. I told him how I felt that it wasn't fair that he .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1947071/ I've made many sacrifices for you. Apparently they weren't enough for you or maybe I wasn't enough. I've tried so hard for you not to worry about anything. But your insecurity was too much and ended up eating me away. I'm not who I want to be. I've changed since dating you. I dropped all my fri.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1947031/ What am I supposed to do? So many thoughts running through my mind. Can't stop for a second and be calm. Always having to be the tough one. Smiling through the pain. Can't even show the pain I'm suffering through. The pain is too much to carry. Ripping me to pieces. I can no longer sew them back to.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1886801/ I remember in middle school, 8th grade. The first time I met you was in tech-ed. We sat in alphabetical order from our last name. Lucky my best friend sat next time. We had 6 students including me, sitting in our table. In the beginning, I didn't think much of you because you were always quiet and n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1874557/ She's leaving again.I just know it.I can see it in her eyes and action.She doesn't love us nor care about us.We sat in the dinning room awkwardly.Our father called us down to discuss an important matter.My father was being a jerk and calling her out.Telling her to tell us what she was gonna do.She w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1719572/ Once you start you're hooked foreverI will f**k with your head and your lifeYou wouldn't be able to quit itYou would need more and moreWon't be able to stop Always be thinking of meSlowly progressing your desire of needing moreI will destroy youTrying hard to stop but you need another hitAlways.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1709257/ Does it bother youIs it swallowing youDon't give me that lookI hate itI can feel itStop staring at me like thatWhy all of the sudden you care?Why the sudden change?What made you care?You never cared till nowWhat changed that?Why are you making me feel guilty?You always ignore my pleaWhenever I reach.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1709134/ I don't know what you expect from meI'm sorry i'm so difficult to handleIf it's too much for you then leavebut you stayI feel like I make you miserableI'm too much for you to handleI can't be myself when you always contradict meWhat do you expect from meI'm trying so hard But you cannot see tha.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1709064/ I just don't wanna be alone The silence is killing meWondering what to doConfused to make decisions that ill change my life Scared and lostNo where to be fondWhere have I gone wrong to be stuck in this situationPleading for helpNo one hears my cry Someone to take my handTo calm the de.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1704782/ Once again i'm stuck in the middleNot knowing who to believe Two people with two different storiesWho should I listen toThe guilt is killing meNo one should go through thisTo choose between your parentsMother?Father?I cannot chooseI pity my motherI empathize my fatherI always thought that's how.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1704431/ Hands tremblingBody is shiveringMind in a jumbleIt won't stopCannot stop itIts overwhelmingOvercoming meSurrendering to them http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1704354/ The smell of burnt wood from the bonfire filled me with nostalgia.Hearing the laughter of my friends around me.Feeling unwelcome, not belonging here.I walked off from my group, somewhere far from them.As I walked off my boyfriend followed.I didn't want to be around anyone.Fear crept in slowly a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1697036/ Everything is crumbling apart slowly.I don't know how to stop it, from falling apart.I've became so unaffected to everything.Can't feel pain nor sadness anymore. No reaction as I watch everything fall apart.Given up on hope. There nothing that can save me.I lost myself through theses years.Slow.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1667603/ Who would have knownWho would have thought you would change my whole view pointI would never thought you could change meChange my perspective in lifeChange my gray bleak world to a wondrous colorful worldBut it crashed down as you left meI didn't see it comingI wasn't prepared and I don't how to pic.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1663483/ I've had fought to keep myself together.Even if it means crawling to the ground.Bleeding to death.Being alone in this worldRejected by everyoneWatched myself burn to the groundHaving to be stabbed by everyoneWatching people leaving me and never looking backI have been left alone for so longLost in m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1662945/ Yeah I understand I'm not an amazing person.I'm not like other people in this world.I'm not a easy person to understand.I'm a difficult person.I don't know how I will change that.Why judge me for my past.Doesn't the present me matter.The fact that I'm here. Is that not enough for you?I went thr.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1656911/ The silence is to overwhelming.The tension is in the air I can feel it down to my spine.It's so heavy the pressure weighing down.I can't speak.The anger slowly creeping over.Too scared to say anything.One slip can cause the end.My heart racing. Eyes drooping from over stress.I'm tired but can't.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1654914/ It's how ironic you tell me that I'm dumb for not noticing what situation I'm in.Ironic how you tell me I'm being blind.Ironic how your telling me what i'm doing is wrong.I watched you all my life.Don't you dare tell me what I'm doing is wrong.I've watched all your mistakes. I learned from you .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1654910/ I was always raised to show no emotion,never trust anyone, love not real, and it's better off to be aloneI believed in himHe was my father, I trusted him and lived that wayI never thought it would cause so much trouble in my lifeI lived this way for my whole lifeNever questioned itBut as I got older.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1652824/ I can't breatheI'm suffocatingI'm aliveBut have no purpose to be hereWalkingBut no where to go toBelong no whereWhere am I wanted?Is there anyone that wants or need me?Why am I even here?I'm aliveBut feel so emptyWhat is my purpose?Why am I here?Why am I alive?I'm so cold I can't feel my heart .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1652507/ I hesitate to askFear overtook meScared that they will leave or judge meI don't know how to ask for helpI don't want to feel this wayI'm going overboardThe conflicts within me is too much to handleI just want it to be overBut I'm scared of the after mass My hands are trembling when I tryInstead.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1652454/ Why is it hard to express myself? So much emotions overwhelming me.Drowning in my own despair.I don't know how to to open up.Afraid to be alone or take advantage of.I don't want to be broken even more than I am now.But this path I'm going might just end me.I don't know what to do.Don't know how.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1652444/ As time went on, we've changed.We got older, our thoughts changed, our distance grew longer.We weren't in love as we were when we were younger.The distance is growing longer and its breaking us apart.Our roles had switched.You fell in love with me deeper and I slowly fell out. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1642316/ Trying to fit inWanting to seem normal in other people eyesJust want to be something significant in this vast worldI want to have a meaning to be hereA reason to be aliveSo lifelessWalking around carelesslyThe light in my eye has diminishedSearching for someone to drag me out of this darknessI can't.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1639206/ I need a break from all of thisNeed to breatheI want to be freeWanting to feel weightlessTired of actingWith the fake smile and the fake lifeThe burden grows more and moreDragging my feet Screaming underneath my own skin Scratching underneath my own skin, trying to breathWanting someone to.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1639203/ It's hard to be here in this word. I'm trying so hard to be happy. Looking forward. But it's so damn hard. I just can't keep going on. I'm tired. Tired of living a life full of lies. I'm tired of wearing a mask everyday, every hour, and every minute.It takes a huge toll on me honestly. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1620490/ I've been distantEverything seems so far away to reachEvery time I grasp onto to something it's just thin airEmpty... Like meI've grown fonder in being aloneI won't get hurt anymoreEverything, just quietToo quiet in my opinionI wonder if anyone has noticedI guess notThe air is suffocating me slowlyI.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1620488/ It's been 5 or 6 years now. I still haven't forgotten about you. I still think about you. Even till this day you still affect me more than you should've had. No one loved me or cared for me like you did. No one has made me opened up like the way we had. No one could ever compare to you. I know it's .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1616335/ I watched you fall asleep on my bed. I thought to myself how did this happen? I couldn't believe all these years you are here with me. So unreal. But sadly I know it won't last. I'm sorry if I get greedy. I just know it won't last. You are gonna eventually leave and don't tell me you won't. I know f.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1614113/ I feel like i'm slipping away from myself.I'm scared because I don't know how to stop it.It's all coming down on me.I can't breathe.I can't sleep.I can't stop the urge.I can't stop.It's killing me.I'm scared.I don't know what to do.I'm lost. I can't find my way.I'm too far deep down.I've been swallo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1614081/ Words that were left unspoken.Many things I want to ask.Eating my thoughts away.I try to say it. But I can't put the words together.My words jumble as I try to tell you.Scared you would leave me.I don't want you to leave me.I want you to stay with meI shut my mouth and stay silent.Rather have my tho.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1614015/ I'm so pathetic. I should just die and not even be in this world. Why do i even bother being alive. there is nothing for me in this world. No one wants me. No one cares about me. So why do i even bother being alive in this cruel world. There no one for me and no one will ever be. I'm alone in this w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1609827/ I always hated you.Always did and always will.I hated how you treated me like s**t.Like I was scum.I was nothing in your eyes.You always made sure I knew that you hate me and wish I was never born.A child that wasn't wanted. A child you regret having.I can never watch my baby videos with joy.Every t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1609814/ Easier said then done.I've tried. I honestly tried. I truly did.No matter how hard I tried, I can't get over it.I know you mean it when you said you regret having me. I know you never wanted me.But it hurts because I hope one day you would change your mind and tell me you honestly love me.Sadly it w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1609771/ A ringing in my head everyday every hour every minute.Like a bird chirping every morning or insects singing all night.It won't go away no matter what I do.Constantly ringing in my head.Reminding me how pathetic I am.Nothing will change and never will.Why am I still here?What am I hoping for?Someone .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1597278/ Time is so cruel. We changed so much as the days past. My feelings for you haven't changed but strangely it got stronger. It gets over whelming for me. It shouldn't pain me but it does. I don't understand where I went wrong. I try so hard to communicate with you.  In the end you refuse to talk.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1523025/ Imagine having many words repeat in your head. The words that you fear of. Now imagine that in your head all day. Imagine that your crowded by your friends always smiling, listening to their stories. Even though you have those words in your head screaming at you! Yelling constantly about your flaws,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1248015/ So many miles away from each other.We aren't close like we used to be.Breaks my heart to think about it.We talked everyday and told each other bout everything. Now we only talk once a month. We lost our connection.We are like total strangers. Our conversations are just two words and then we are.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/1243826/ As I enter my bus looking forward to see you.As soon I saw you my face lit up and I smiled.Thinking that i'm lucky to have you.I sat next to you and you gave me a hug ask about my day.Then you tell me I have new classes and telling me about your day.As we drive to our school I laid my head on your s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/941717/ I want to tell you my feelingsBut its so hard tooI want to just yell it outI get nervous when I sit next to youI get jealous when I see you with another girlI wish to tell you my feelingsBut also i'm afriad of rejectionI can;t stop these feelings for youI think bout you everydayLong to talk to .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/900296/ I always liked youI was happy when you asked me outYou were my close friendI thought you would understand me and treat me rightBut I guess notYou never talk to meYou ignore meYou flirt with other peopleI'm tired Tired of thisI feel stupid for waiting you to text meI wait and waitNo replyI'm gon.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/886005/ Sometimes I wonderWonder that am I ever gonna be lovedI wonder why I always get hurt in the endWonder am I not good enough for anyoneI feel like a fool when I wait for you to text meBut then I get disappointed in the endThats sadSad that I thought you would make me happyI lied to myselfLike alw.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/885999/ I'm sry if it doesnt make sense :/ lol http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/872879/ My heart thump when I saw the text meassage...We haven't talked for 2 months.I immediately went to go watch you but then...I saw you with another girl...My heart shattered and I realized. All the time we shared and all the times you hurt me. I was never important.I walked towards smil.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/843423/ Heart beating fast.Running as fast as i can.Tripped over a stick. Noooooooooo!!!Leave me alone!!!Stop! I beg of you! They keep pointing at me.Why? I didnt do anything wrong. Stop!!!I got up as fast as i can and ran as far as i can.Fell to the ground crying.Why me?Why am i left alone?I didnt do anyth.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/806382/ There's a difference between lies and the truthLove and HateGo and StopWalk and RunMorning and NightYou and MeBut there no difference of my love for you                        &nbs.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/blu1997berry/806339/