http://slow.writerscafe.org/joshua96mc The original writings of author Canicus en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776028478 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 Sometimes I look in the mirroronly to seeMy deepest most devastating fearthe darker part of menever thought I'd see it clearerthe darker part of methe part I never want to let gonever let it outjust keep it cagednot to let it shoutdiscontent with myselfdark thoughts arrayputting myself downheart ran.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1379752/ SometimesI feel so uselessInsideesteem so ruthlessIt feelsso hard not to quitI tryto fight for betterI wantto be something inThis worldnot another faceI wishand dream for the starsBut Ijust want to give upShould Igive up my dreamingAnd stoptrying to change things http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1379743/ Little teddy bearlying in my bedrememberingeverything that was saidSun risingoutside of my windowthinking ofwhy I feel so lowthe past was darkthe present harshI need to find a wayto turn it aroundlet my spirit roammy soul set freeI want to knowwhat's inside of meThe strength I possessthe pain I conf.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1368204/ Lately, I've envisioned us holding handsGetting to know each other a little betterSlowly, you're making my thoughts bestirTaking me to my most majestic dream landsMy mind caught and sinking in quicksandWithout you lands are cold and dankerTo me you will forever be specialI hope we could at least hav.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1364307/ I want to be your pillowLay your head on me and sleepBeauty of yours is more than skin-deepI wish I was your heroI want to be your weirdotickle fights, poking, wrestlingI would really like to take you dancingI wish I was your heroI want to be your shoulderwhen you feel like letting tho.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1363679/ I lie in bed at nighteyes wide openthoughts full of youthoughts of which never to be triteThese thoughts, considered a bijouof an amazing, lovely womanmy thoughts, my feeling imbuea soul so anglianYou are now of my desireeyes nor mindcan't lose sightYou are now queen of my empireyou are stuck in the.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1359772/ I often thinkMyself a writerThoughts and feelings in inkMake my heart a little lighterI often thinkMyself a musicianMy mouth and soul in syncMake me a little less brokenI often thinkMyself a warriorFace to face with danger, not to blinkMake everyone's life a little softerI often thinkA little too mu.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1357266/ I thought this was a cool analogy to put with the way I felt http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1270018/ TimeIt's going way to fastI can neverseem to make it lastIt's happeningall too soonI just wantto stay in my cocoonThis isa lot to take onand the picture is poorly drawnJust got comfyin my ownnow movingto a path not yet shownI'm not readyto go on un-ledbut I guessfull speed ahead http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1241435/ having a down dayfrown upon your faceanxiety taking it's tollmaking your heart racecan't keep your concentrationmind is scatteredand being pulled in every directionon the window thoughts splatteredso much happeningall at once, it's a lot to takeand you're trying to be strongcan I help you smile when.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1132549/ under the tall treeson a warm bright summers daylooking at the sky http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1121809/ Love in places not typically foundUltimate brain power beyond your imaginationX-treme luck after thousands of broken mirrorsUnrenown happiness like never beforeResources of skill in every categoryYour life long dream fulfilled http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1121803/ Nothing can be worse than realitywhere nothing in this world is fairand there's nothing to rely onso what's really out there?A life of false hopeand fallen remediesno pure, warm heartseverything below 0 degreesAll of your dreamsbecome little shards of a tainted mirrorit's always so hardwhen you come.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1116428/ I can bea beautiful field of flowerson a bright summer's dayshining on through countless hoursI can bethe pure hatred in your soulthe thing brings out the worst in youthat makes you pay the tollI can bethe very chills down your spinemaking you shake in bed at nightputting you in a wicked bindI can b.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1116422/ chasing after itI have no idea where I amit led me astrayI don't know if I'll be backIt's getting foggymy vision's becoming impairedbut I can't just leave it hereI have to have itDid it sneak into the treesoff of this dark pathsometimes I can feel itgetting closer every timenot to come back to mebut.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1112383/ what can be seenwith a birds eye viewflying high in the cloudssee things in a form so truesee the beauty and the poisonsin this worldI wish to see thingswithout being twisted and twirledknow where the truth isand let the lies peek outwould I know the path to paradiseor the pothole path that goes off.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1108194/ what's to be happy aboutanother year, another dayto be here and watchthe surroundings decayI don't care for the new yearnor the new day for that matterI just can't wait for the lastwaiting for the day I shatterwhat's so good about lifeit's all just a direct path to failureall the things that give us.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1098679/ sometimes I sit and thinkabout every little thingis there a pattern, some kind of linkwhy are we here, why do we singI wish i could stopThinking only eats me away skip the brain and to the heart we hopwhy can I not seem to keep this darkness at bayis this world for myselfor do I belong here at .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1096257/ Knowing the difference betweenwrong and righttrying to make peacetrying to stop the fightwanting to be talentedanything is possiblehoping to accomplish so muchis everything plausiblelearning to be knowledgeableanswering everything throw your wayknowing all of the random factsintelligence in eve.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1067813/ A man of complete lovesees not the true cruelty of this worldonly the beautiful partthe one that has crystallized and pearledA man of despairis blind to the bright rays of sunjust glances at the horrid truthlook right at the damage that has been doneA man of peacejustice, is someone they'v.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1043079/ first poem in a while http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/1040110/ The sun is drowning behind the mountainsThe sky is lit up bright pinkDay time is gone, the chill night has begunone ends, one starts, a fascinating linkIt is said that after ever death there is lifebut how will anyone really know?the questions no living person can answerbecause they've nev.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/981300/ Looking straight down the barrelI can see the bullet made with gunpowder of hopelessnessaimed, cocked, and ready to be firedwaiting for my last words, the finger on the trigger with a firm pressAs I sit there staring into the gunI know who is hiding behind the firearmwe seem to run into each other q.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/969275/ I'm looking into a broken mirrortiny shards reflecting mebut every piece has something similarflaws... everywhere I seeA stupid, annoying, hopeless personjust a waste of space, time, and airwhy should I even try?I'll just end up in failureeventually the pieces of glasswill be scattered on the floora.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/965963/ The hail is pouring fasterthe fog is getting thickereverything is getting destroyednot much more is leftIt's getting harder to seethings are becoming blurrythe air is moistwith the feeling of nothingnessI see somethingout in the distanceslowly being pulled towards itstanding above it I'm astonishedI.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/963187/ You were able tosneak your way intothis beaten life of mineand I thought it was too good to be trueBut you stole my heartfilled it with the happinessthat only you could make me feelyou saved me from the darknessIt's not completely gonebut you're willing to be my heroinein this ever lasting.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/943282/ Two hands holding my heartboth just stole itI couldn't stop either onebetween two my heart is split One, the hand of my beautiful maidenso soft, loving, and tenderI love her more than words can sayto her I can't help but to surrender The other not so kinddigging it's .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/846851/ people tell youthat you dont havewhat it takesthat it can't be done but here's your chancejust follow your dreamsno one can tell youwho you're gonna be (chorus)now's the timeto make your dreamsinto realityI'm telling you nowthere's no limits you can d.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/844893/ A queen, a goddess, a flawless perfectionshe is...not just that, but morea beautiful spring flower, luminous moon in the nightsuch a lovely maiden I adore never have I met anyone like herso sweet, cute, caring, compasionate, and lovelyshe's truely one of a kind, a special girlan.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/832425/     I won't let you gocan't get you out of my thoughts you're everything to meeverything and morewhen I was losing hopeyou came bustin' down the door you came down from heavenjust to help memy own fallen angelyou set me free (cho.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/829565/ The beat of the drumsjust like the beating of my hearteveryboom and crashletting me just... restart the strumming of the guitarone chord after anotherput into perfect melodyholds me together the lyrics from the singers mouthjust flows from the soulmakes me get lost .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/826521/ As soon as I hold youI will never want to let gojust wrap you in my armswanting time to go slow You're amazing to meyou're everything and moreI love you with all my heartyou're all I could ever ask for I want to fall asleepby your sideand wake to see your smiling fa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/822337/ People just don't understandthey don't see what's behind my eyesall the pain, all the miserycaused by all of life's lies They think I havenothing causing me to stress outbut there are many thingsthat no one knows about Sometimes Ijust can't handle itI feel like.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/819677/ A song my bro and I wrote http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/818596/ Songs I wrote, and some my friend wrote http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/818079/ Darkness was consuming meand trapping my heartgetting me readyto fall apart Killing all hopemaking me want to give inI thought I was helplessI didn't think I could win but you came into my lifeand lit a fire brightwhich scared the darknessamazed at such a sight&.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/816299/ Hopewhen I thought all was lostreasonwhen I was giving upsmileswhen they seemed brokencomfortwhen I needed itinspirationwhen I drew blanklifebefore it was too lateall of these things I now havethanks to you http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/816220/ There is one more showit might be the lastso if you're readywe'll have a blastwe'll make it slow and painfulnever go too fastdirect your attention to the stageas the light comes on at lasthope has been lostnever to be foundto this miseryhe is boundkilling him slowlyno helpi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/810374/ Blind I wander aroundarms out searching for hopebut there is noneI have no way to cope trapped in this cagewith darkness and despairno way to breakoutinto the eyes of sorrow I stare locked insidewith the vicious beastlife with it's teeth showingready to devour me,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/810365/ I thought you were the one...the one who could pull me from the darkbut I was wrong about youalthough you did leave a big mark you started to save meI thought you were actually aidingbut you just pushed me in furtherand watched as I started fading I guess happiness isn'.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/807692/ All I'm going throughhavng to put up with peopleand all the things they doalso falling into darknesswith nothing to hold on tothat means no escapewhat is my life turning intohatered everywherenothing I can do  http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/803617/ is it possible to go one daywithout feeling hopelesswithout having to deal with everythingand stop feeling helplessshow me what happiness isfor just one day, let me feel it againit's been a while since I've smiled a real smiletoo long it has been http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/803614/ Lies, deception, hateredIncomplete, uselessFeelings of being lost, hopelessEmptiness, sorrow, unwanted http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/803612/ This is the sequel to "Circus" http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/802702/ Welcome to the circusof darkness and despairthe first act, a boyalways treated unfairyou'll enjoy this oneas you watch his heart tearand he realizesno one will ever carefor the second actyou watch as he goes through hellit gets worse everydayas you can probably tellno hope fo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/800100/ about drunk driving http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/797889/ I feel like I'm falling apartthere's no hope for meno way to get me out of the darkit's where my soul will be forever I'm stuck and confusedin this on going darknessI can't turn back nowthe darkness is now endless The further I go onthe darker it getsthe feelings of.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/793956/ I slipped and now I'm fallingI'm falling deep into my own demiseI see them watching not lifting a finger to helpthey just watch me fall, the millions of eyes it's like I'm not importantthey say "he's stupid, can't do anything, useless."maybe it's true that I'm just a waste of spac.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/793954/ Slowly I fall downinto this pit of darkness and despairStarting to think I'm helpless, hopelesswhy is this happening, it's not fair Slowly I spiralinto the point of no returnwhere I'll be stuck the rest of my lifeinto my mind, body, and soul this feel will burn no way t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/789439/ song I wrote please check it out http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/joshua96mc/786269/