http://slow.writerscafe.org/Penny4Thoughts The original writings of author Penny Thought en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776215992 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 I want to write a poemTo say I’m thankful just to know him.But the words just won’t come out right.Trying to articulateThat our love has to be MORE than fateYet and still I don’t know what to say.It’s kind of hard to expressHow I melt with his gent.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Penny4Thoughts/1074179/ I’ll never be the one to turn heads.Never be the one to bring men to their knees.Never be the one to stop them in their tracks.Or make them beg “Please!”I’ll never hear “Who’s that lady?” as I walk pass.Never hear the oohs and aahs when I enter a room.Never .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Penny4Thoughts/1054472/ People speculating, saying it won't last. "This can't be real; You fell too fast." True, it's wise to take your time. Still, it doesn't take all day to recognize sunshine. 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