http://slow.writerscafe.org/Sunshinekid The original writings of author Sunshine Kid en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775979966 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15  Don’t save memy head may be spinningI may see doubletripleeverything may seemtoo brightmy questions may haveno answersbut don’t save menever save me.I may never getwhat I needI may never see the lightof the day createdfor meI may let my naivetysuffoc.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/342871/  She dancesAnd gigglesBecause that’sAll she knows.She can liveLifeSquealing with joyAnd smilingAt the littleThings(Like a nestOf birdsOrA green leafRight beforeWinter ends)For isn’t thatHow lifeIs supposedTo beLived?There areNoPunctuat.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216118/  There’s no needTo cryWhen nothingIs lostFor that is whyWe cryRight?We cry whenWe lose somethingWe no we cannotEver get back.We cry when our mindForces itself intoThis idealistic stateWhere we think(And pretend toKnow)That we will gainThat lost baggag.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216117/  Sometimes IWonderWhat it would beLikeTalking toAWall.It would listenWouldn’t it?It wouldn’tInterrupt meOr judge meOr hate meOr hit on me(WellTechnicallyIt couldBut in a muchMore painfulWay).Of courseIt can’t nodOr talkOr offer.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216116/  Okay soMaybe she isA littleLonelyMaybe she doesWonderWishHopeMaybe she isStillVulnerableBut who saidShe wasn’t?She never liedAbout itFor sheWas never askedShape-shiftingSometimesBut neverLyingManipulating?Some maySay thatBut others(Like.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216115/  Confuse meUntil myHead literallySpinsOff its axisAnd intoSpace.Lead meTo where youWant meBut leave meTo figureIt out.SuggestThen dropThen pick upThen drop againUntil I’mOn all foursLooking forYour pointAs you look downNot laughingOr irritat.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216114/  I’m undesirableTo mostTo allDisgustingApparentlyWorthlessObviously“Maybe there’sSomething wrongWith you…”Maybe?Definitely.The sunOh the sunI love youI love youI love youThe sunMy friendMy companionMy loyalBabeMy hot.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216113/  ThinkThinkToo muchThoughtFearJealousyRunning throughEveryVeinThinkThinkAlways tooMuchToHandleAlways do thisToMyselfNo chancesToExplainAlwaysThinkingThoughtsThoughtfulThinkingBlinded byThoughtsOf passionAndLoathingOf somethingI d.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216112/  If eyes areThe window intoThe soulThen what doYou seeIn mine?Are they ever changingWith every flickerOf doubtOr lossOf hope?Or do they                      &nbs.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216111/  What once wasBeautyJoyEleganceIs now somethingMuchMuchLess.Or is itReally?Idealistic childrenGo to watchThen to learnThinkingThey’ll beThe nextBigThing.An idealistic dreamTurned intoA reality-checkedNightmare.They installed in meClinksBum.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216109/  She’s wonderingWhy itStill hurtsWhy re-readingAnd speakingHurts moreThan the realityShe’s forcedHerself into.The pain…The painShe feelsDoesn’t evenMake sense.If it was for herTo be betterFeel betterAnd live betterThan whyDoes it .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216108/  I sit on aBus stop benchThinking to myselfOf all thatHas happened.I think of loveAnd supposed hatredThat oneHas felt for meAnd others.I think ofNight and day andHow they playOffOf each other.I think of growingUp andGrowing oldAnd how theyDon’t nece.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216107/  Oh GodWhat am I?I thought…D****t.I thoughtI meant somethingI guessI don’t knowWhat I couldPossiblyBe thinking.Why would you…I guess…My thoughtsRemainIncompleteSince I can’t evenSpeak the wordsI so desperatelyNeedLet alo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216106/  LinesSegmentsDotsGraphsAs if thisWas all supposedTo bePlannedOutLikeSome sortOfGnarledOld gameIf it is(A gameThat is)Then whoeverDecided the rulesHas oneTwistedSense ofHumor.ThoughI bet he neverThought I’dStumble acrossHis notesFi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216105/  It’s a messyTangoShe’s inOne stepForwardTwo toThe sideOne diagonalFive backHer partnerIs teaching herThe stepsSo meticulouslySo wellBut she can’tCatch onShe goes offOn aDancing tangentTrying desperatelyTo understandBut at the same t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216104/  FeelingIs underratedExtraordinarily.Someone loves youFor God’s sakeBe happyLove them back.Someone hates youGet angryFeel their hateReciprocate it.Someone is hurting youBe hurtFeel painDamn itAt least you’re feelingSomething!Someone cares for you.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216102/  Swinging on theEmpty yellowSwingMusic onWorld offThinkingOf everythingEverythingThe lotThe wholePumping legsIn timeWith the blastingTuneGoing upGoing downWith the rhythmHumming theEnthralling melodyAs it takes overMindBodyThoughtMovementMouth m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216101/  She wasHis sweetestFailureThat feelingSo pureToo pureClearCleansingSmooth as iceAnd just                               .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216100/  Relief washesOverLike wavesOf purityBeautifulCleanSparklingWater rushes overThe delicateSkinNot to drownBut toHelp float.SuddenlyThe sky is clearerSuddenlyEverything is brighterSuddenlySafety can be feltSuddenlyMy stomachIsn’t inMyThroatS.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216099/  She’s so littleInnocence shiningTrustingFaithfulCarry her downWhere a smileIsn’t enoughShow her lifeShow her warWatch her innocenceReturn toThe cornerWhere moneyIs neverAn issue. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216098/  Cover herIn yourSpring Snow.Teach her toLie downWithout aThoughtWonderFearFeelingCraving.Fill her withYourBeauteous confusion.Let yourselfWash over herWith affection so cruelThat her tears turn toSnow flakes.Cover herGreen grassWith killer freezeAn.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216097/  Something simpleThis time aroundJust a question…Not that I canThink ofOneJust simpleLike a starOr roseOr chocolateSomething simpleThis time aroundBecause it’s whatMakes the worldTurnA million simpleThingsMake up oneComplicated thingWhich w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216096/  Now she thinksI’m only offBecause thatOneThingIt’s funnyBecause that’sHow IPlay itLike it’sThat oneNotThis oneYou so sillyAll of youNot knowingMyStoryOnly oneKnowingMy sunWellTwoReallyMy sunAndThe sunNot muchOf a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216095/  I’m sorryI’m so sorryThe nightmaresAnxietiesPainI’m sorryI didn’t meanAny ofItPleaseOh GodPlease forgiveMe.Please be happyPlease liveI didn’t meanWhat IThoughtI did.You needHappinessMore than IEver willMore than IE.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216093/  Fire flickerFree the mindTear trickleRip the heartFrom its normalityAndConformity.Meet you halfwayDown the cornerAnd whatnot.Meet you whereThe sun can alwaysShine.Meet you whereYou makeMe smile.Meet you whereOthers don’t care(Or ratherThey doBut .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216091/  I should be sleepingBut I’m notAm I ever?OoohExistentialNoI’m partyingAnd writing poetry?ApparentlyOkaySoMaybe notPartyingBut having funNonethelessI cracked myNeckIt’s a satisfyingSoundShould I be worried?NoThe sun willTake care o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216090/  She only staresThinkingThose awfulTerribleBeautiful thoughtsTo herselfNever aloudFor what then?What couldShe accomplishWith words?TouchTasteHearIs what sheDoesIs howSheCommunicates.She strollsGentlyLadylikeElegantlyThrough lifeWith looksNot n.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216089/  He ignoresBecause he knowsHe knowsThey’re wrongHis thoughtsTheir thoughtsAre too differentNot enoughTo say thatThey’re bothCorrectSimpaticoShe staresDisbelievingly(More at themThan atHim)Because sheTooUnderstands that onlyOne canBe right.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216088/  Sun isGrinning at herAgainTeasingTestingFeeling her upThen stoppingWhen it getsGoodKissing herBut onlyEverSoSlightlyLetting the cloudsGet in theWayTo see theReaction.It wasn’tPleasantThe treesBirdsWoodlandsCriedAs sheFelt herselfMel.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216087/  It’s indescribableWhen you reliveAn experienceIn your mindTo reproduce itOn paperIn wordsTo look at itAs you once didAll that timeAgo.It’s strangeLooking backOn itWith a newUnderstandingAnd newly openedEyesExamining somethingYou knew notLos.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216085/  What am IGetting myselfIntoOrOut of?I always do thisAlways.DoBeforeThink.SayBeforeDo.Prove somethingProve toAnyoneProve yourselfToMe.Don’t need toYou don’tNeed it.You never have.Don’t worryThey’re justA sleep-deprived.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216083/  RambleRambleRambleBlahBlahBlahI mean wellHonestPromiseSwearFor seriousFor trueFor reallyAnything I canDo for youIs doneAnything I canBuild for youIs upAnything I canCatch for youIs caughtAnythingAnythingI am youI am for youMy friendsMy fa.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216082/  “Live lifeAs ifYou were dancingOnTheMoon”ChuggingTuggingLuggingIn aweOf the peopleWhoCan take thisTo heart.Who can useThis asAWayOfLife.AdmirationConsumes thoseOf longingAnd wit.Humor isThe highestWallFilled withGraffitiOf.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216081/  So terribleSo awfulFlashbacks ofThe painThe incidentThe…Face twistedDistortedIn fear and painAs I reliveThe dayThe HellThe…Oh GodThe pain is tooHorribleI see it allHappening againEverythingDetailWordVoiceItemEverything is inView.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216080/  A shift in groundCan make youFallOrStandHigher than everBefore.Please standIn spite ofWhat is constantlySaid to you.Please riseRegardless ofWhat they throwAt you.Please liveNo matterHowOrWhy.Please runToAndFromHumanity(Or what’s leftO.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216079/  It’s oddHow he refusesTo full outExplain his loveFor herHe alludesBut neverSays aloudOf courseNot fromFear(She knows that)She understandsWhyOf courseShe knowsCaresEmpathizesBut she stillMissesAndPines(For)His loveFor herIf it isIn fac.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216078/  SoThat’s the wayIt is?Fine.Replace meAs ifI were some kindOf ghost.Forget meAs if I wereAnotherFace in theCrowd.I suppose I am.This proves it.I’m nothing.I never wasAnything.I never will beSomethingSomebodyToSomebody.I fell forThe s.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216077/  The first timeI cryIn monthsHurts meSoDamnMuchNo wonderI stoppedIt should takePain awayNoNoIt bringsIt backEverythingI cried aboutIs goneIs alwaysGoneThat’s whyI cryFor somethingI fearWill neverCome back.Why can’t IStopForev.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216076/  Terror flowsThroughMy headAnd myHeartWith such speedI should beImpressed.It seemed so realSince it happenedBefore.I’ve seen it.I’ve felt it.That’s why it’sSoDangerous.Wake upAnd feel theBurn the monstersLeft behind.But that is.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216074/  EverythingAt nightIs still.Click-clackClick-clackHumHumClick-clackPitter-patterThe only soundsHeard.UnderestimatedOf courseBut hereRight hereNowIs still.Slowly becomingSome sort ofOwlBalancingBeing aRay.HumHummingStrummingClickClickSoun.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216073/  You canHit herStab herCut herScream at herKick herLove herSmile at herLaugh with herCare for herSing with herShine with herSee herCarry herBe with herKiss herHug herTorture herAccuse herFeel herFear herShoot herTear her apartDance with herRead .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216072/  SometimesWords aren’t everEnough.If you wereTo be someoneI loveI could hug youAnd say moreThan these little wordsEverCould.If you wereTo be someoneI hateI could slap youAcross the faceRepeatedlyUntil it’s redAnd that could beMoreAnd could.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216071/  It’s missingBut what?It’s the unnamedNo nameFlash ofSomething.Dancing aroundTo othersAs if theyDeserved it.Maybe they do.Who am I to sayAs I shakeShudderMoanMutter incoherentlyInto unconsciousnessWhere I beg forSolaceOn my kneesBeggingPle.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216070/  It’s strangeBeing betweenReality and dreamLike I so oftenAm.I hear my motherTapping awayI hear my fatherSwinging his clubBut I also seeDragonsCalling my nameAnd gumdropRainAnd goldAt the endOf my rainbowsBut most of allI see himWho can’tAct.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216069/  ‘Round andAround andAround we goWhere we stopNobody knowsIn the little gameOh we’ll call itLifeThe game withEver-changing rulesFirst time was okay                   .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216068/  Every dayA new pageIs addedAnd written soMeticulously so thatEvery breathAnd every blinkAnd sighIs recorded effortlessly.The narrator’s voiceIs low and sultryA voice unlike my ownOr any womanI have met.I hear it all day longIn my headThe tap-tap-tapping.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216067/  My angelReincarnatedThe one who knowsSo muchNever tellsNever mentionsThe one whoCan see meFor who I amAll dayEvery dayKnows when I lieFake smileWhen I say“Nothing”And mean“Everything”He catches itThe angel ofMineThe angel sent.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216066/  They thinkThat just becauseI smileThroughThe strifeThat I’mIndestructible.They thinkThat just becauseI can laughUntil I can’tBreatheThat IMustBePerfect.When thingsTurnSourAnd I’m leftWith the memoriesI clingOnto for dearLifeTh.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216064/  She’s crazySweetCreepyFrighteningMasochisticLonelyBrightShe can’tLiveWithout theAffirmationOf othersThe needFor affectionLoveEcstasyFrom himHim onlyBut he doesn’tEverGive it backMasochistShe’s theMasochistEmotionally tor.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216063/  Something insideClicksAfter every dreamThoughtWonderCraving.LustSurroundsMe like aCloudMistDewPoking and proddingAnd testing theSo-calledLimits thatControl me.Sensuality(Lust’s sexyCo-worker)Laughs asLust pressuresMeStrangles meIn pleasur.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Sunshinekid/216062/