http://slow.writerscafe.org/tryingtobepure The original writings of author Jb en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776054750 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 The quiet nightThe quiet sightThe quiet thoughtsAs they take flightThe walls can’t talkSo they’re quiet, tooThey just move before meThat’s all they need to doIt’s all they need to doTo say what I need to hearSo I break the silence and screamBut my voice .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/tryingtobepure/1013692/ That was the scariest night of my life. I was extremely nervous in the hours leading up to the dose, but then things seemed to brighten up a bit immediately before. I remember being so happy, thinking I was going to be enlightened or something. 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The taste of thunderstorms, the smell before rain. It'll make you scream, yet calm your nerves. 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