http://slow.writerscafe.org/I%3C3Cookies The original writings of author xXxCynicalWarsxXx en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776016772 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 It only comes around when you want it to,Almost like a storm and its last drop.I wasn't sure of what I was to do,But clearly its become my final stopOn the long lonely road I walked upon.In a vain hope to be found so strong,I fell to my knees in a dark dawnAnd was kicked around for so long.You only .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/I%3C3Cookies/1297419/ July 1 2013 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/I%3C3Cookies/1209402/ July 1 2013 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/I%3C3Cookies/1209396/ June 30 2013 http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/I%3C3Cookies/1209393/ I wonder if your heart flutters,If the lights seem brighter;If you get caught up daydreaming.I want to say there's somethingGreater here than love itself,But time will tell where we'll go.I know the scars I created a month agoAre still trying to hide away what damage I obtained.I am .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/I%3C3Cookies/1190431/ I keep seeing eyes glimmer,Happy orbs that tell me I'm wanted.I haven't seen the light this bright before.I feel the clovers around my toes,The blue skies so pristine,And a quiet whisper that there is hope.I need to keep a hold on you.You're the closest thingI have ever had to breath.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/I%3C3Cookies/1190430/ Calming storms in my bed,I cherish words I hadn't been told.Corrupted by a lost love,And broken by a friends betrayal,I cling on to the ledges of Suffering,And beg to be Saved.Reach through the distance...I need you to... http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/I%3C3Cookies/1190051/ It shivers down my spine,Fingertips that promise a grand escape;And my bones do not run.Black boxes kicked aside,I see the mirror to find myself.Eyes of oak stare back,Gentle with a flayed past,And my chest heaves the gesture to come home.Cracked partings and broken promise,It's al.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/I%3C3Cookies/1190046/ My bed is sending me some serious sleep rays.My pen is shrieking for me to write.And my mouth is a close call to I'm sorry.I can't remember the last time I felt like this.I showed you my palms today.And I wished you would have held them,But those fists didn't waver. 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