http://slow.writerscafe.org/carasbirdsongs The original writings of author cara en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776259025 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 man is no godi am looking for godbut god is not goodand i am looking for that tooall we do is hurtand all we do is stressand all we do is shameand all we do is feelcan i stress to goodnessfor the love of godcan i shame to goodnessfor the love of godcan i feel to goodness.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2896774/ I should take how easy it is for this all to feel fakeas evidence that it's all too realtoo, too real,to the pont that it is poisoningyou feel real.you feel like how it was supposed to be.like i'm a baby again and i haven't been ruined,by shame and fear and men.but rather you look so friendlyand you.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2896550/ speaking of traumalike it tells me nothingim not traumatized bitchim sposed to feel this way http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2896405/ ooo he paid her off in cloversooo she's with me all the timeooo my hand around her shoulderooo he knows that first, she's mineooo it's open to dicussionmaybe for the first timeooo her around my shoulderooo only i can make her cryi am onlyhere to avoid discussionbut can i blame myself for forgetting .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2895597/ the patriarchs in my housejust learn the s**t they used to s**t on me for knowingand they talk to me like theyre teaching me like when you stopped abusing mum and you had your first sober morning in ten years at leastand you talked to me about how to be happywhen you stole my happiness.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2894689/ Beth struggled to decide if she should continue on her path. Up ahead was a straight path, hedges on either side, impossible to see anything past the darkness. She looked around, as if she could find someone to give her reassurance, but there obviously was not. She groaned and gave in to continue. S.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2894442/ he cant fish cuz someone owns the ocean round this corner darlingshe is kinddont eat the berriesthey're not poisonit's not publicthey rot and die and fall to the floorwe love the waste 'cause they're not yoursstealing is illegalthere's nowhere to plant your gardensand its only bleeding logictho.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2894438/ ooooh, life is painand that all itll ever belife is painand you're full of s**t to meditate on itbaby http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2890533/ How do I tell him I don't take advice from faggotsMaybe my periods comingIt used to make me insecureI used to think if I was thinking about hitting you over the head that made me a useless fuckhole, like that old man saidNowadays if you think I'm a little animal I'll be oneI'll suck you and f**.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2890503/ if ur meeting them organize it so its like you take a test before going in and then you have somewhere booked to stay the night nearby http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2890381/ i hate happened to mei take responsibilitybut not before i grieve the child that i wasshe was better,she was good,she spoke and she played and she did what she couldyou ripped my backbone out of my bodyand now you ask me why i lay theremotionlessi don't know what to doi don't.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2890375/ Vinegar and tuburculosis: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3940030/ http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2890262/ 21   22   23   244pm  4pm 4pm 3pm except my food supply is more like 24 hours knowing myself http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2890260/ stay til the 24th have them over they could avoid the complex but if i get sick ill bring it home to schools and aldi and they could take me to the apartment complex as well go 21st/22nd, they could bring work to the apartment complex then back to work, http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2890139/ if im gonna be mad at no oneim gonna be mad at no oneif im gonna make fun of no oneim gonna make fun of no oneits about time someone was emptystill above the bari have such a hard time caring about if people diei care so much about if i, i, i http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2889845/ * Lettuce* Green beans* Radishes* Tomatoes* Radishes* Potatoes* Catch fish http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2889811/ and i still think there's something wrong with memaybe it's because you keep telling me there is and i'll die before everyone i meet is any differenti'd rather you looked me in the eye and said retards like me shouldn't be allowed to reproduceautism be damned, my f**k buddy is cuteim sensi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2889733/ all you do is f*****g argue with meall you do is f*****g argue all you ever learned was f*****g arguei don't know how to leave you broken sick peoplei have empathyi understand cause and effectbut i have a bodyit works for me and only mework it hard enoughi only started hitting things the past f.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2889657/ and dont ever think you can just kiss it betteri never couldi coudn't drink it betteri couldn't think it betteri send you job openings like a dog looking for someone to fill his bowlyou hug me extra hardand you only let go when you hold me extra tightand i still don't feel like you l.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2889377/ oh, my little f*****g hearti just want love but it means reaching outand you dipped your spoons in boiling water and touched them to my armsand its not big enough of a deal for me to point it outi judge men for not connecting with peoplebut this s**t hurts, this s**t hurtsi don't know if i'll do it .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2889144/ "I can either pimp the situation or I can fall victim to it"-Kendrick Lamar http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2888995/ im a bullshitterits the only thing that runs in my family after murderand beating the s**t out of peopleronnie cray couldn't handle skibidi toiletmaybe it could've saved that girlmaybe it could've saved that horseturn it into a joketurn it into a jokedon't laugh too harddon't hid.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2888973/ Breakfast: Peanut butter porridgeLunch: PB&J and banana sandwichDinner: https://cdn.jwplayer.com/previews/mNB2C21o http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2888516/ hmm http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2888494/ I cannot convert a moderate person, but I can speak to a self hating person about self compassion and considering placing blame on the people that made them that way. I cannot work with moderate people, but I can give free disability equipment repair. I cannot be disruptive, but I can leave food at .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2888440/ * Invite them to activism things* Take them to Ronan's or Jampa Ling or another WWOOF place* Fun fairs, roller coasters, etc* Outdoor movie night* A4 sound studiosfor myself:furry and cosplay shitgay walkssurfingworkaway http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2888347/ you, you're so prettyyou, you're so tasteful you cook me dinner im sorry how those people wasted you  you, you're so handsome you, you're so nice i would say damn but i know how the church has treated you i never got to tell youall the nice things i think abou.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2888237/ Clothes and sheets:1. Vinegar (especially citrus peels)2. Soapwort, yucca, horse chestnut, soap nuts3. Lemon4. Tea tree or thyme5. For non-clothes: boilingShower gel1. Soapwort, yucca, horse chestnuts, soap nuts2. Aloe vera3. LemonShampoo1. Soapwort, yucca, horse chestnuts,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2887781/ Evolutionarily human beings want to be alive. Fundamentally, all living creatures need to want to be alive, otherwise they won't be. It has nothing to do with 'reason', which is a subjective, human concept that would not exist in the objective world if all human beings died tomorrow. It simply follo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2887655/ Nirvana is to oppose or support nothing, but without supporting Nirvana, Nirvana would distinguish. Without opposing the banning of Buddhism, Nirvana would distinguish. The reason all life wants to live is that in order to exist, you must want to. It's scientific. It's evolution. It's mathematics. I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2887638/ i guess its ok if you're mad at meif i don't have you ill have meand i say that begrudgingly'cause i was not meant to leave this oftenthe day after, ate my feelingsif i don't have you ill have mesmoking in the park and i feel the shrugonly difference between love and drugs isi was not meant to come .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2887261/ so they can be in an apartment complex probably going in and out but theres a chance theyre staying in?if they come over to mine they'll just be around me and i can cook for them.i do have a sore throat that i got immediately after throwing up, so its most likely not asymptom of anything contagious,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2887258/ i mean they say you can love being loved and not actually love the person. i want to be conscious of this. they're like, perfect in terms of everything i want in a person, but i don't want anyone right now. i'm not ready to commit. im so f*****g happy they were planning on the leaving the same t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2887142/ it is possibleand it could be beautifulit burns my fingertips'cause its coldand it happens every yearand i love it, and i need it,and it always ends.but it is possible,and it is beautiful.and that's love, that's love, that's love. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2887136/ at the end of the day bestie, lives are what's important. yes, not killing someone is more important than not having them be upset with you, no matter how much you like them. also, don't act like you can' tell them you're patching things up with dad or you tested positive for covid or something. you.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2887057/ kissing at the bus stop i just wish i had the heart for it http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2887050/ everything keeps coming to an end in my life;i wonder if that'll ever stop.it's good things that end, though.relationships are the biggest bioweapon any death squad could wish forask my dad, ask the cray brothers, ask anyone who's seen a gun.you want love so bad you'll kill for.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2887022/ maybe its not even about love,maybe its not even about sex,maybe you just wanted a confidant.maybe you just wanted a friend.and love is the only excuse.sex is the only excuse.and think about why you feel like you need one.think about why it happens to you.a friend, sitting on the.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2887020/ maybe have the sense to realizesooner than later;they're too good for you.don't be like your father.maybe have the sense to realize,sooner than later;cowardice is hereditary, and they don't have it.courage is contagious and you felt that in their armsfear is shared in your blood.but you turned .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2887015/ i must learn that in another world i'd hold youi'd have held youyou'd have held mebut we're hereon my couch made of leatherwith the heating on for you and only youand i bought all this food thinking it wouldmake me feel betteri can't name a thing on its ownbecause it competes with all the othersin a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2887009/ TUE - get food with nasal sprayWED- no nasal sprayTHU - test in the morning  http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2886539/ PLAN 1: Van Life- Gas freezer- Gas stove- Buy a years supply of food once a year, store some of it outside at mums house.- Indoor composter for human faeces and scraps: to be used as fertilizer- Collect water in storage jugs from peoples houses- Shower in a blow up kiddy pool- Solar chargersPLAN 2:-.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2886527/ you're what peoplemake of youpeople aren't creative anymoreyou're not as good as you hopedyou're as bad as people say you arein a roundabout wayif you say it out loudit may as well be trueyou become what surroundsthat's why i swim in the open sea with youi dont think god dictates behaviori dont thin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2886521/ either kill me or jail me or leave me aloneyou can't stop me from walkingunless you do http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2886396/ 1. Bedsheet2. Blanket3. Thick coat4. Guitar5. Skateboard6. Air fryer7. Trainers8. Boots9. Two merino wool t-shirts10. Three pairs of jeans11. Hygiene products12. Can opener13. One frying pan14. Cup15. HEPA air purifier medium size16. HEPA air purifier mini size17. metrix reader18. Plastic lidl bags1.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2886313/ i will always be paralyzed by feari will never be anything i made for myselfno man is an islandso i have to be on fireyou were the one to light itbut your killer was successful and its just f*****g dreadfuland its so f*****g stressfuli wake up every dayjust trying not to lose youi cry from all .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2886229/ I find society so stressful that I would rather not participate than have to deal with the stress. The good thing to do for the collective is to normalize it by doing it but I can't handle the stress to the point where I would rather not be there. But there are other things to do as well suc.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2885944/ don't be so f*****g arrogant,thinking you're the kindest person aroundthose people might not leave the houseand if they do they wouldn't speak to your family http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2885825/ i just think that feeling good is an evolutionary handbook of what will keep you safe, and feeling bad is an evolutionary handbook of what won't. i personally would struggle to stay alive all alone, or with people against me. wanting to be alive is the only way we could survive evolutionarily, wanti.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2885776/ how you tell if someone's love is unconditional is if they'd be nice to you if you were mute lol. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/carasbirdsongs/2885698/