http://slow.writerscafe.org/LouraDGW The original writings of author Lucille Illuminated en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1775984237 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 I hate meI hate existing I hate feeling I hate lifeI hate hurting people I hate being hurt I hate feeling hateDig a hole6 feet deepDig a trench Now through me inIm a horrible motherIm a horrible person Im a horrible lover Im a horrible wasteTake me awayGive ot.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/3128882/ Tears of shameTears of fearTears of angerTears flow and growAnger buildsAnger destroys Anger envelops Angers a messy gameTears when angryTears when sadTears when happyTears a messy gameAnger to painAnger to liveAnger to maintain Anger to thriveThrive is to giv.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/3126494/ The wisp turnsInto a curveAlong the trailInto the woods Dreams unfoldFantasy then reality Reality is boldImagery is gleeHolding careTangling feelsGrip like a bearRelease that healsCreating avenuesDrift as waterLingering fuseShift in thought http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2962986/ Walk outCome backGo next doorTry the next floorLost in dismayDrifted away Return to Old ways Never to new daysThe void is fullThe days dullControlled and reverted Chaos and delusioned Shush hes talkingShush shes talkingShush they are talkingBe silent on the stage.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2954588/ WalkSwayNudgeGlareCraveBreakFailDoReadySetKeyGoScentSightTasteFeelWaterOilEarthFireSkinSpeechEarGrowthDisappearVanishNo wordsNo matter http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2951536/ hate thyself.hate the brainhate thyself I know I can’t dieBut sometimes I still want toShe is the only thing keeping me going Am I even a good person Am I even a good parent I deserve to burn dont II want to be doneThen I hear her voiceThen I see her smileThen I.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2951535/ F**k thoughts of how nights could end Dick is f*****g mixed thoughts of you Sex so good it makes the comeback delicious Delicious is an understatement F**k let us begin again with needed funFun activities in many forms Sex, drugs, alcohol, feelsThe poison is strong The thought cont.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2948235/ It’s really hard not to message you…I want to check on you I want to talk to youI want to read your writingsI want to hear your writings I want to hang out with youBut I cantCan I I wasnt even supposed to message you I did anywaywhen I was overwhelmed When I coul.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2941771/ To dream is to fadeTo live is to dieTo thrive is to chaosTo run is to stayTearsAcidStingBurnDrip is the flaccid Run is the comfortLaying on a bed of spikesLounging on a couch of pinsFeel the temptation Give the temptation F**k your friendsLeave the restDan.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2941770/ Circles, squares, triangles, rectangles, diamonds, hearts, stars, pentagons, hexagons, quadrilaterals….. the list goes on.All shapes, all different, all unique yet classified the sameShapes are to humans We all come in different forms yet at our cores we are the sameFull of bones, blo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2940776/ want all the things want all the funwant all the lovewant all the crazywant all of himwant all of themwant all of herIts hardIt’s draining Its degradingIts dreamingIs this an optionIt’s absolutely a choice Is this the right optionDo I take the opportunity .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2939260/ Growing up is watching babies become toddlers ReachingGrabbing Crawling Sliding Standing early Eating early Expressing early Wanting to rewind the clock Pausing the moment to reflect Wondering if it slows Wondering if it speeds up The curiosity in the eyesThe energy.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2923930/ Enter the code Pull the lever Push the button Roll the diceCount to one millionSnap your fingers Make a wish Decorate a cake Do a jigWalk 15 miles Wait 2 yearsDrag bags Become thinFix yourself upGet a new home Stand up tall (Even if you are 4’11”).. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2922915/ Eyes open. Can I move an arm or leg? No. Can I move my head? No. Can I yell? Nope. As I feel a floating sensation I am unable to move anything except my eyes. I turn them from left to right to left again 10 times before I begin to hyperventilate. Then it feels like a crash. My breath is knocked out .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2922670/ Tears running downSliding down the face of a mountain To meet the end of the coveGriping with everything they gotLosing the challengeDevastated in themselvesGone is the dream of tomorrow The dream of a gold cityGolden like the sunrise on a new dayGolden like the sunset on a chi.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2920605/ Dreams are forms of reality Dreams are the memories we blockDreams are real life experiences Dreams are the most beautiful Dreams are the most destructive When discussing destruction consider everything that could be Everything from suffocation to abduction Everything from parties to.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2909738/ Emptying my notes http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2907947/ Placing this somewhere new. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2907946/ Residential Boarding “Schools” http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2907944/ Take a turn Turn leftTurn rightGet in the next lane Drive for 1 mile Look a red carSight a police car Anxious to parkAnxious to f**k upThe phone rings Plans change Plans shift in an unwanted direction The driver doesn’t want to decline The driver doesn’t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2896228/ Hours till go timeSeconds till startMilliseconds till painThe pain was there all dayFrom opening my eyes till walking through the doorsWalking to engageWalking to take away worryAs the hours went on… things got intense The intensity grew every fee hours… no minutes.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2891966/ Take lifeRoll onto the pavement Do a dance and laugh again Become the toolPlaygrounds are made of metalYet only to see rubberTo take is to endTo end is to take The universe loves painAs pain loves companyCompany is always in the least formNo one saw the signs No one saw the a.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2883817/ To end lifeTo start lifeTo damage To steal To breakResults tally upBoiling over Spilling outChanging individuals Creating chaos Dragging onJust dig deeper Just try again Just move on Just end yourself http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2881259/ Dream the thought awayManifest the urge to turn awayThe urge to continue is bleak To be something less than wanted The urge to want more Yet still wanting what is given now This unattainable power of exploration and security Knowing those things can’t occur simultaneously Tryin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2880083/ Dancing around the idea The idea of ‘good enough’Good enough; to meet expectations set by anotherDo everything by the book Good enough F**k up once…F**k up twice…Its the end of the lineTake my soulGive it to anotherFail to be good enough Fail at li.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2876349/ As a baby the world is huge and full of loveNot knowing what this feeling is called but it is presentNot knowing humans can be cruelEven those who created youAs a baby the world is endless yet ending each time due to object permanenceThen that baby turns to a toddlerAs a toddler the .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2875298/ OverthinkingOverbearing Over analyzing F**k thinkingF**k tryingF**k analyzingIts all the same endingFull of tears and angerFull of regrets and shame Full of disappointments and failure Thinking gets nowhere but 6 feet under eventually Thinking is to a natural disaster http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2874966/ Little did we know Little did we dream Little did we forget Little did we move Little did we love All these little things adding up to big things Little hands growing strong Little organs developed well Little feet kicking toughAll these little things adding up to big things .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2874870/ How to separate emotions?When you feel everything at onceHow do you separate them?When you feel everything at onceSo many ways to describe an emotionSo many ways to feel an emotionSo many ways to express an emotionAnger, cutting the skinAnger, breaking the glassAnger, tearing t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/LouraDGW/2873975/