http://slow.writerscafe.org/Taylor%20Bigelow The original writings of author Kiara en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776009835 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 She likes to go out on nights like thisWhile she takes a drag from her cancer stick.The breeze is lightAnd the smoke dances gracefully with the night.The stress starts out highBut each moment brings closer a light,More like a small coal,Breathing her way closer to death, to home.She breathes in poet.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1370329/ So I randomly wrote this at about one in the morning and I haven't seen past season seven so if I messed up some information, that's why. I'm basically just going from the spoilers on my tumblr :p http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1366533/ Don't say that I'm so close to the finish line,Because I'm really not.What happens after high school?Nothing can really change that much.No one can confirm that I'll even graduate.I'm a few decimals of a percent away from failing,Not just math class,Not just high school,But life.I've failed the ones.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1359812/ Don't look up,Don't look left.Mirrors are on both walls,Attempting to shatter you so you'll shatter them.I can't look at myself.I can't see what he must have seen.I can't be reminded again.He said that it was okay,That he didn't see a thing.But you know it's a lie,And it will never be the same.I can.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1348234/ Does where you shoot yourself mean anything?Right now I want a bullet through my head,Just to numb the pain,Just to dull the thoughts,Just to stifle the screaming,Just for one moment of f*****g silence.If I couldn't stand the pain,Couldn't escape the hurt,A bullet through the heart would do just fin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1346692/ I don't want you to go,But I know you're better off on your own.I know I need you to keep me sane.You're the blood running through my veins.Without you, I'll lose it all.I'll climb to the roof and fall.I just want to let it all slip awayBecause no matter what, I can't end your pain.With you, I strug.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1345387/ I'm no good for youAnd don't lie and say I'm wrong.Don't tell me that I'm worth it,Don't tell me I'm your everything.I can see the pain I bringAnd it's not just killing you,It's destroying me.Why should I fight to breatheWhen I'll only hurt you more?Why shouldn't I give upInstead of dragging you dow.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1345375/ A shadowed silence enveloped my body as a cold chill crept over me in the dark.  I felt frail, small, unwelcomed in an unknown vacant space.  My light footsteps echoed louder than they should.  My breath was quick and heavy, loud in the discomforting emptiness.  A wall suddenly .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1344970/ I don't care if the sun stops shining,The light in your eyes will always be plenty.I don't need my lungsBecause I already forget how to breathe when I see you.I don't need God or angels.I put my faith in you and I know you're real.It hurts to fight but you're worth it.I don't deserve you but I'm too.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1341009/ How am I supposed to be perfect?You always tell people that I'm not worth it.Just point out my flaws.Show them your disappointment in me.Tell everyone about my mistakes.Just push me to the edge and I'll hide the way my heart aches.I should be used to this,You do it every chance you get.What makes yo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1339914/ Do you ever catch yourself staring at the family photo,Taking a step back,Just to realize how wrong it all is? Your parents,Who you are supposed to love,But simply can’t.They always push too hard,Ask too much,And when y.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1335410/ What the hell do I mean to anyone?Why would I matter?It would be easier to disappear And everyone would be happier.I'm sick of being a joke to everyone.I'm sick of being treated like s**t.I look like a crack w***e?Thanks mom, good to know you're perfect.I'm a freak?Wow, good thing you girls are.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1330352/ I have a secretBurning a hole in my pocket,Hiding beneath long sleeves.I have a secretAnd it won't let me sleep.Just the thought of it makes me sickAnd I'm terrified of the reason why.I don't know why I woke up.I don't know why I'm okay.Why was it so easyJust to close my eyes and fall asleep,Eager f.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1327485/ Just fight the urge to scream.Fight the urge to cry.Just keep fighting until you're home,When you can finally say goodbye.Fight the urge to slit your wristsAnd fight the trembling in your hands.When you get home, you can take the bottleAnd swallow all that death demands.You've tried before(It seems .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1327049/ You deserve nothing more than you have.You deserve nothing more than you'll get.You're a failure at everything.Just wait until you push them all away.No one is going to see you.No one is going to care.Soon they'll be gone.Soon no one will care.It should all be over soon.We all know you don't deserve.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1327025/ Now I'm standing on the ledge,Leaning over,Hanging by my fingertips.All I have to do is let go,So why am I having second thoughts?Why do I get scared now,When everything could stop?Maybe I'll just count to three,Breathe in deep,And learn to fly. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1323332/ Don't say that you won't leave,Because I won't believe it.Don't tell me everything's okay,Because I know it's a lie.Everyone stumbles once in a while,But I've fallen enough that I can't get back up.I'm stuck dragging my body through this HellAnd the flames are catching up.They swallow me wholeBut th.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1320617/ I don't belong anywhere,Don't have any friends I can call my own.All energy has left meTired and alone.There is always a space,Something keeping me in isolation.There is always a deadness,Sometimes followed by desperation.No one wants to be alone,But some of us have convinced ourselves we do.We thro.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1320597/ I fall, unable to balance the weight of everything.My trumpet hits the bleachers,Then drops to the ground.Embarrassment floods through meAnd my friend picks it up.He looks at me,Wide-eyed.I glance at my trumpet,Bent and cracked.I just had it fixed.I have practice tomorrow.I'm such a failure,How can .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1319552/ You can fix a broken object,But you cannot fix a broken person.They'll always fall back apart againAnd they'll usually hurt worse.You just need to make sure they don't break any more,Because there is a certain point where it becomes too late.Is it too late for me?Is it too late for her?How broken do.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1319364/ I'm trying to keep my head clear,Trying not to think about different ways that I could try.I've been there too many times before.I know nothing will ever work,Not unless I can find something new.If it doesn't work once,Why would it work the second try? http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1319359/ Certainly I'm being melodramatic.No one should bat an eye.I'll let this feeling claw me up inside,But it's easier than letting them in.I can't get help,I can't find my way.The light is just too dim,Too far away.Why would I need a light?I always preferred the dark.So why is this dark laced with pain,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1319358/ Why does this always happen?Why can't I make it stop?I see the hate,I see the disgust,Undisguised in their scrutinizing eyes.They don't see the pain,They only see a silly girl,Unaware that she's lost to another world.They don't know about the fear,Hidden deep inside me.They don't know what I want,Or.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1319355/ I feel the pieces of me coming back apart.I knew this glue couldn't last forever.Why do I have to pretend?Why can't I fall to my knees--Fall to my knees and finally fall apart?It's getting too hardAnd it's always been too much.I'll never let them in,But I'll always beg for help.Why can't this feelin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1319354/ Nobody sees who I amAnd they'll never know what I feel.All they see is a freakAnd maybe they're right.What good am I?What have I ever done?I deserve nothingAnd there is nowhere I belong.A failure is all I amAnd all I'll ever be.So please just go away.Let me drown in my misery. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1319353/ The girl sits in front of the crackling fire, the warm glow caressing her face and hands, reflecting in her eyes.  The cold begins to thaw from her heart of ice as her purring cat nudges her elbow with his face.  She smiles weakly at the cat, unwilling to show her pain but unable to hide .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1309393/ She gets back her sheet, the word gold written at the top.  Her parents glance over her shoulders to see, but when they get excited, there is nothing for her to feel.  Why would she deserve a gold when her brother only deserved a silver?  He is much more talented and arrogant, he exp.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1309387/             I trudgethrough the snow, footfalls hushed by the white cloud.  Wind collides with my face, hot butcold.  My hair blinds me while revealingears that have already gone ice cold.  Mysmile grows desp.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1307811/ Every day, I'm going to write a paragraph or a short story. I'm not sure if they will all form a bigger story or if they will just be random. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1307810/ girl can see dead people when she is closest to joining them http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1299381/ I see my brother,Stronger than he seems,Weaker than he seems,Maybe pulling apart at the seams.I hear what he says,Comments and retaliations,Full of hate and provocations.Does he really mean it? http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1297060/ My body shakes as I fight away tears,As I fight away the urge to slice open my wrists,Revealing blood that I wish would never stop.I hold my breath as I try not to scream,As I try to stay in control. "Will I still get into heaven if I kill myself?" I try to breathe but my lungs seem to hav.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1288567/ She sings along to all of her songsTo lift the weight of the world from her shoulders.When she sings, there are no wrongs.There is no pain to drown her.All day, she longs,Only to sing her pain and troubles away. Now she finds less comfort when she singsAnd she dwells more on her pain.She l.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1286858/ Do you know that painThat only comes from hurting someone? Do you know the painThat only comes from them doing the right thingAnd finally leaving your sorry a*s behind? Do you recognize yourself pushing someone awayOr doing something wrongBut not being able to stop? Do you try to be h.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1285120/ I'm beginning to realize my writingIsn't writing.It's thoughts jumbled down on paper,Nothing worthy of mentioning. I'm beginning to realize my helpingIsn't helping.It's just the desire for others to feel betterBut never knowing how to get them there. I'm beginning to realize that my lifeIs.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1285069/ A speech I wrote for my English class http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1284242/ Keep your head up.Don't let their words get you down. Let me help youBecause I can't seem to help myself.I'll help you find a wayAs long as you promise to stay.Don't try to end it,Because what would I do without you?Put away the razorAnd take my hand.I'm not perfect but I'll do the best I canTo.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1264609/ Baby, please don't cry.Let me wipe those tears from your eyes.Let me hold you one more timeAnd let me tell you it will be all right. You don't see the beauty I do.Just let me stay here to comfort you.Don't you see how much I care?Look into my eyes and tell me what's there. I need you to st.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1264592/ She didn't tell me I had to talk.She said I merely had to sit with them.If I feel sad,I will get away from my family,Because they make everything worse.I don't really want to die,Do I?When I'm around them,I think I do.When they're gone,I feel so much safer,Like I'll be okay.I guess that's just my im.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1264437/ I shift uncomfortably and nervously in my seat.I know what will happen when I get home.They're taking me to a doctor,Because apparently I'm the crazy one.I'm sorry,But I'm not the one who told her daughterThat no one cared.I'm not the one who made her daughterFeel like she was worthless.I didn't tak.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1263962/ I try to fight the urge to scream,To hit something,To hurt something.I want to drag the blade across my wrist,Let the blood drip to the floor.He told me he loved me,Which I honestly didn't believe,But now he's back with his ex...Again.I don't understand why.I don't understand what I did wrong this t.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1263957/ I sit in my now empty room,No blankets or pillows on my bed.She also took all of the clothes out of my closetAnd all of the various items off of my dresser.My cat is in a cat carrier,Waiting to be taken who knows where.I hear her meowing,And that's what pushes me over the edge.She walks over to me,G.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1263897/ We were supposed to write a story with 10-12 words or phrases from Shakespeare. Those are in bold. The title is also a quote from Shakespeare. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1263463/ We wrote sonnets in English. It isn't very good but I just wanted to get it over with. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1258515/ What a piece of s**t you are;What a waste of space.No one will flinch at your pain,And you'll soon just be replaced. You are such a pathetic excuseFor what a person should be.Now we'll cut loose the threadsAnd see if you can stand on worthless feet. Sell your troubles to those who don't ca.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1255846/ I hold in the tears,I hold back the screams.No one would care,Trust me, I know. I take a thousand daggers to my heart,Yet say nothing but "I'm sorry."Just tear apart my flesh and bone.Take away this pain. I know I'll never be good enough.I know no one will ever want me here.No one can see .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1255807/ I'm so fucked up I don't know what's wrong.I just know that I'm always alone.No one gives a damn and that's how it should be.Why care about the lonely freak?Tear apart her skin and maybe you'll find somethingBut deep inside, her heart's gone missing.It's such a tragedy but no one was there with meAn.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1255704/ We had to write a short story based on The Arthurian Legend. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1255130/ All I ever feel is worthless.My family doesn't care.My friends don't know enough to care.Why should anyone else care?It's the biggest struggle just to find each breathAnd I know my heart should give outBecause I don't understand how I can take this pain.It's been so long.I don't know how to act.I do.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1240017/ As I look through old pictures,Memories slam into me,As if I've just driven my car full-speed into a brick wall.That sounds like the better option right now.My eyes begin to waterAnd my hands tremble slightly.My lungs forget what they should be doingAnd I know I can never let myself feel this again. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/Taylor-Bigelow/1236189/