http://slow.writerscafe.org/bobbycatjug The original writings of author ashley en-us Copyright 2026 WritersCafe.org 1776026280 WritersCafe.org RSS Generator 15 this is just some babbling http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/3079113/ i can feel my love for you draining me,skin turned grey.an ache in my marrow, a poison inside of my veinseach night it makes me collapse a little more,all beneath your name.a hunger never touched, and never fed to this dayit keeps me wide-awake.i love you from afarand you'll never .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/3079112/ hi its been a while guys the website lowkey shat itself soooo... anyways hi !! http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/3079111/ i flinch and fold at lovetreating kindness like a loaded gunand yet i crave it anyways.when the arms are warmwhen the door it openi turn my face awayhissing like it burns.but i still test the same electric fencelike a dogsnapping back with a yelp,then trying again tomorrow,just to make sure it still.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2960386/ total silence.not a sound out of our mouths.i can almost hear the waterdripping from your hair onto your skin.as i lie down on the bed,i watch you sit at the edge-bare shoulders, still wet.we're in my own room,you asked me to stay.your silence feels swollen,and seeing your sorrow,i lift the towel fr.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2954529/ you wrote to me a poemlike nobody else has.the words you usedthey pierced my heart;all cherry-picked and intentional.i wouldn't have imaginedthat we would drift away so fastbut life got in the wayand clouded my heart.and i'm always thinking backon the way you used to talk to meand the way that you w.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2954526/ i find myself still thinking of you.when i stay the night at his,i sit thinking of what to do.am i the only one who’s still feels this way?although i have a lover, and i know you've got one too,i can't see past his eyes without seeing you.an arm wrapped around me tells me i'm not alone.all he .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2954525/ i can't shake the thoughtthat i'm just a joke to youit's always a trap.more than a friend,less than a lover.do you think its a waste of time?in between your sheets,but im feeling something more,the sun, your heat, your heartit was always real to me. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2950712/ it's not just mewho chose poorly.i'm barrelling down a dead end streeta collision course of failure.it won't be long now.what kind of person will i be when i reach the other side?i've had no timeit's just killing me http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2950711/ i will cry alone tonight,i will sleep with my tears on my pillow,and in the morning i will wake up in my bedthirsty and dry,but probably warm and comfortable.and i will continue with another dayas if i didn't feel the weight of the worldcrushing down on my feeble and naïve selfin the chill.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2950708/ you are a whole art gallery in motion,everything you do is beautiful;calculated or of whim,i see the same rays of lightexude from you.i see the colours in your face change,i see how each muscle tics,and all it is, is artright in front of my eyes.and your laughter,and the timbre of your voice,it is m.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2950707/ i am the cut and i am the blade,bathing in the blood of who i used to be;all my devotion turns violent.i am the face of loves rage.i must dip my hands in holy water just to touch you,as loving you will haunt me for a lifetime,and i rage as i choke on my sorrow of your absence,because i refuse to sur.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2950706/ i fed him with my words,tender like raw meat.every kiss, every look, a whistlecommanding without saying so.i called it affection.he called it love.but inevitably,i knew what was going to happen.i taught him to sit in my absenceand growl at my silence.i trained him to need me like.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2946004/ i was told to be present.to move with intention.so i stood stilland let slowness hold meas the moon climbed the sky.the world kept turning.i got motion sickfrom standing still.but with my time,i think.i think about everythingmy future,the future,what kind of dust i’ll l.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2945858/ there is a pit in my soul telling methat i cannot fix anything i worry about.i desire somethingso violently,but i wont act.kindness isn't removing your teeth,its choosing not to bite.too, i will not accept plastic love.it is pleasure from dystopia.so i huck back the cry in my throat,where the rottin.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2945856/ an atheist can still admire the architecture of a church.Too, i can watch you from afar.and i can understandthat i can't prove to myself that you're true,and i can't believe in what you promise to me,as i have no personal proof of a miracle.i can't count on you to give the love all back to mei can't.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2945696/ this is hardcore yap, also its been a while, hi guys http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2945692/ i drink alone now that you’re not here,the high only peaks when i think you came home.pouring my sorrow into empty bottles,so i can drink again later,continuing my search for an answer.you're the only question mark in the book of my life. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2938435/ you stand up from the velvet lounge,an imprint of you is left behind.an empty space beside me,a hollowness inside me.tears simmer in my vacant eyes.i clutch your clothing which i stole,a jacket to wear, but could never fill. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2937811/ free my love from the burden of a cagebreak open my ribstear out my heartand eat it from the inside outdevour my lustand trade it for lovescorch my skin with the heat of your bodytaste the way i love youand the whole depth of my beinglike i'm the last thing you'll eatuntil you hear me scream from my.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2937810/ savouring the limerence of your lust, mistaking it for love.letting your shadow stretch over me, and calling it devotion.offering my softness to a mouth that only knows hunger.swallowing the ache of dependancy and calling it a meal,knowing it's large enough to feed me for weeks. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2937809/ satisfaction with my hunger,knowing i haven't had a taste of you for a while.i hate to acknowledge my sin,but i miss feeding into your lustrous, begging heart.i yearn for you to etch your violence into my soul,i was desperate for you to prey on me,i acted as if it was my last day alive.conflic.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2937800/ advertently i listen,even when you don't do the same,i grip at your bones,only then will you feel me & care,utter contempt unless i change for you,sometimes i ask myself,why? http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2937643/ how could such a pretty girlwith such a pretty heart,start to rise up high,and then give up?who would let such a precious thing,start to fall apart?how could you give awaysuch a piece of art? http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934423/ spit out all your words,and ill tie them all together.when your heart shatters,i will glue it back piece by piecei don't dwell on how you've changed,because i know things never stay the same,but i cant help but think of you,when you weren't aware what it had come to.blissfully ignorant,or rather,inn.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934422/ you give your all,you said its nothing,and you say we’re small,i say that's still something.i tell you,look at the life under the microscope,and tell me if that is insignificant,when put into perspective. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934421/ this one is a bit more graphic, sorry! http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934420/ oh vienna, baby, you're so easily mistakenyou're so easily manipulated."pour me a little love, pour me a little love of yours""oh, you can have it all"vienna, baby, its not that you're 'too easy'your humble heart could never them down.you take their words for hostage in your heart;you're lying .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934419/ i wait for you like an empty home,a dog with a bone at your doori reach out to you like i'm a sinner,yearning for your redemptioni spend my time waiting all night,met with dissatisfaction.my body is frozen as i stand outside,in complete desperation.how many seasons will pass by?how much sand will sl.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934418/ ice beneath my feet.the bleak, yet serene feeling of desolate cold.basking in my liberating insignificancein the face of naturewhich shall stay silent as i cry into the void. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934339/ breathless i stay as i open my eyes in the water.the blurred world around me flows however it wishes,not a problem for me now,the silence that follows is eccentric.finally,a break from the chaos that lives on the landi found peace in drowning.the silence,the way the water holds and embraces my limp .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934334/ every beautiful thing i see,i see him.if only he knew that i see the stars in his eyes,and the clouds in his hair.if he knew i heard the birds singing in his sweet laugh,and i feel the breeze from his peaceful presence,what would he say?i cant help but think that the water from the ocean,the deep ri.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934333/ each month a part of me dies,but like a weed, i always bloom,even amidst the most unfamiliar conditions.while my remains are on the floori grow and stretch from the inside out.a new desire,a new motivation,a new satisfaction.each branch of my ever growing soul continues to sprout,each leaf, a new op.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934332/ the ghostly gray eyes that are left in a hollow shape of a man,so stubborn,yet so brittle.a fire burning deep from the inside out.a horrid time but what a show its been.i swallow any objection that all life may not be the same.maybe companionship is the answer. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934319/ you ripped me apart to quench your thirst,i mistook your lust for passion and love.you liked watching me wither;you sink your teeth into my skin,drunk on a sliver of passion,a moment to pass,all for me to leave vacant.you told me everything i wanted to hear,everything i wanted to know,not about you,.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934212/ your eyes speak to meand your face glows like the sun.but with transparency,i don't care what you look like.your insides beam right through you,indiscernible features,in the night and the day.to me you are the light,nothing less.to me, you are what seems to be holy.you are what they describe in book.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934211/ to feel your bare skin against my palm,tucked away by your shirt,the middle of winter presses your warm skin.i feel the goosebumps rise as your body chills underneath my touch.only innocence can save me from you,the wrath of lust drives fear into me,and i rave until it's quiet.to know you want me sw.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934210/ i haven't once looked at your face & thought indifferently.i can't see your dreams and desires,so in my mind you are perfect,unchangeably beautiful.it feels prophetic when i think about how handsome you will look when i see you next,because without fail,you always do. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934209/ the things i do for you,are not a sacrifice.i do not give up myself,pressured by a burden,because of you.it is all at your expense,because i love you.you are a gift,nothing close to a burden,you're the closest to heaven a bad man could ever reach.  http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934208/ your purity won't save you,from hellish lust and greed,from the corruption engorging soft hands,the ones that wander to your heart.a vulture with the wings of an angel,soaring to the moon,a seemingly promising visit,without heeding, i loved you.the first light of dawn shows what the night hid away.y.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2934207/ i visited your room every day and laid on the floor,as to not taint your bed.it stayed exactly as you left it that morning,an imprint lingering on the sheets,where your body last rested,the last remaining piece of you that i could have.i touched nothing in your bedroom,i didn’t want to disturb.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2931840/ i think i distance myself from love because i am afraid of losing what i have;i am afraid of the grief.if i feel such an amass of love,if grief is heavier than this,how will i bare it?love is what killed Jesus,so how could i ever handle griefif this is how love feels?to have something at the tips of.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2931830/ and i would beg to be helped.i'd cry out,"why is nobody helping me?"but they were.i was not helping myself.every time help would come by,i would scare them offor i would reject their advice.i was unfixable to others,but unbeknownst to myself,i was the only remedy.inevitably, the time will pass;.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2931827/ i haunt my own flesh;in the shell of a beautiful woman lies a tired,aching soul.whatever is inside of me,i wish it were different.but this is my home and this is where i was cursed to be. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2931826/ i can't live life without companionship,but i hate the lingering thought of death,and the fact that nothing lasts forever.i knowingly sit there,while time takes everything i love away from me.so whisper to me your darkest secrets,your most shameful instances,and let me love you through all of them.i.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2931825/ i'm in the arms of a lover,but my love is watching.i stare vacantly at you,unreciprocated love to whoever is wrapped around me.my cold fingertips turned black,touching the heat of their body.to them, i'm cold.but this could be us,again.i'm 6 drinks in,and your laugh still haunts me.cant you see i'm .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2931824/ if i was never opened up to such a world of hatred,would i go to hell?how am i meant to know whats good and bad,if both just come natural?what does death mean to a woman,who doesn't even know what death is?she didn't know the weight of it all.how was she meant to know not to eat the apple?you consid.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2929184/ i don't want to think about it.i don't know how you CAN think about it.if i put another moment into thinking about you,i think i'll lose myself again.its just myself in my own arms,my own hands to caress my face.holding on to nothing beautiful,its shattering,cutting into my skin.now a missing piece .. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2929181/ if you went to hell,you’d look like an angel.heaven knows you’re a false prophet,so you're denied entry.earth,the inevitable place for you to end up.you're just human,that is all. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2929178/ i did it to myself but i did it to you too.i am the villain and i wont stray from responsibility in this situation.i lack commitment to you,i lack courage to pursue,i overlook flaws until it hits me,and it hits me hard.i treasure independence to a selfish, onerous degree.i end up wanting none o.. http://slow.writerscafe.org/writing/bobbycatjug/2929177/