bipolar

the scariest thing about you isn't

that you blow up a lot

it isn't that in one wrong move 

you could be sent over the edge

you're not violent

just cruel

you're not scary when you yell anymore

all i see is the scared little boy who suffered

the one that didn't know what was going on with him

no

the scariest thing about you 

is that

i could be just like you

like father like daughter

i could terrorize my future children

with the constant fury in my soul

maybe it'll become addicting

like a hit of nicotine in my mind

maybe i won't be able to stop

what if i can't stop

what if my skin falls away from my face and my voice deepens

and i see you standing in the mirror

and i try to hide and try to run

but the verbal poison has seeped too far into my bloodstream

the irate thoughts pinned in my brain

and then what everyone says is true

children do become their parents

Reviews

[Pete]

a chilling testimony. i appreciate the real thoughts and feelings.

[John the Baptist]

I worked in the mental health field for 28 years. I think your fears are common among those who are children of the mentally ill. Genetics are not predictions, though. I suggest you find and join a support group.

[Sunflower]

thank you so much for the advice! it is greatly appreciated

[lydiango72]

The fear is not the person who wounded you,but the possibility that one day you will wound others the same way. The poem's tittle impressed me a lot and I can feel the deep-down pain inside your story.

[Sunflower]

thank you so much! it means a lot to be seen

[Marie Kinnett]

This hit me really hard because I know what it's like to have that feeling that you will become your parents. But I believe that we can pave our own way even if it feels like walking through concrete. I really like this, very emotional.

[Sunflower]

thank you! i know that the counter to the theory everyone becomes their parents is they fight to not

[Marie Kinnett]

your welcome, keep writing :)