Decisions with no answer of my own

Sometimes you just can't make up your own mind

I've had enough of the life I am living today.

There's no place to go and the price is too high to pay.

I wake up in the morning and I think to myself "maybe I will be okay."

But how can I be 'okay' if I don't have a say.

I can't make up my own mind.

Should I leave or should I stay?

One decision brings the night and the other brings the day. 

One decision would leave me as cold as ice and the other as warm as the end of May.

How can I be 'okay?' 

I hope to find the answer one day.

Reviews

[barleygirl]

In my youth, it was easy to change & leave & try new things (did this constantly). Now that I'm older, your poem describes my dilemma perfectly. Some days I make a decision, but then I have to scold myself . . . don't go back, mulling over that decision again! Also I tell myself: if I can't decide, then at least I have to stop letting this dilemma burn up all my mental bandwidth. You capture the way our minds turn these things over relentlessly! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Faust]

Thanks Margie :)

[Chris Shaw]

Your lines speak to me of dilemma. Someone who is torn and unable to decide between the options. Not a comfortable place to live. My advice, if in doubt do nowt. You convey the situation well.

Chris

[Robert Trakofler]

Oh little sister this is grand. Your non structured cadence has a very nice natural flow and your rhyme scheme is spot on. The good news is you will be... okay, anyone as introspective as you at your age who can write like that has got an ace in her pocket from the starting gate! The bad news is it doesn't get any different later in life, the restraints change but the parameters are all still present... just different! The trick is to open your eyes and see and be... present for the universe will unwind before you the myriad of choices that unfold before your path but I digress you already have hint of this in your wrightings!

[Faust]

Thank you for the review and the advise:)

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Wonderfully emotive poetry...there’s genuine feeling here without being too sentimental. There’s no doubt you have talent! Well done

[jacob erin-cilberto]

if we don't feel we are in control, that is very difficult...but we learn to go with the flow...and try to understand there are reasons for the way our lives unfold.
j.