Remembering Happiness {Ego}

A Story by Abishai100

Amlan/Esmerelda are psychiatric patients/friends who may derive a 'difference' in high-art while 'negotiating' ethics.

A 'cool' adaptation of Girl, Interrupted (James Mangold).

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Amlan Satan was writing in his New Year journal about a special memory from his time in a psychiatric treatment center in the United States during which he was confronted by a very beautiful woman, a female patient named 'Ezzy' (Esmerelda) who insisted that the two should break-out and become masked vigilantes in the American Homeland. Ezzy was a huge fan of comic books and believed her difficult childhood and traumatic past warranted a special heroism daydream, which she'd entreat with this fantasy about vigilantism. All's she needed was Satan's help, and she'd try to persuade him at the psychiatric center on Saturday mornings with a Polaroid camera session involving instant-image/photo sessions tied with special whispering-messages about how 'sane-folks' on the outside were constantly evaluating the shapes/value of memory/magic/beauty/imagination in proportion to the fleeting quality of impermanent justice in this age of great criminal insanity!

AMLAN: Let's dress up for Halloween this year as vigilantes, Esmerelda.

EZZY: Yeah...that's cool, Satan; but you still owe me this fantasy about vigilantism.

AMLAN: I'm not busting out of here to help you become a vigilante, Ezzy.

EZZY: Why not?
AMLAN: Well, it's simply crazy, Esmerelda.

EZZY: You know you love me...and we're both crazy anyways...we'd be able!

AMLAN: Let's just get through this 'nice' Halloween inside Belleview.

EZZY: Alright, my sane/grounding man-of-honor; I'll get my Polaroid.

AMLAN: Maybe we'll upload our Halloween duet-image on social-media.

EZZY: There's (surely) lots of Halloween 'duos' out there of romantic-Ego.

BELLEVIEW ADMINISTRATION: "The care here/now (in our New-England center) is quite extra-ordinary and excellent and we offer chess and camera-games for our patients inside, and Amlan/Esmerelda had been two of our most popular patients, and they'd spend most of their time with each other, so we'd never have anticipated that Ezzy (Esmerelda) would've departed before/without Amlan (but that's just what occurred), and Amlan told us she left him a special 'hospitality-gift' (of some kind of 'diamond-heat' insurance value/message)."

What was this 'diamond-heat' insurance-value of civilization (message/gift) that the 'troubled' Ezzy (Esmerelda) left-behind for Amlan Satan at Belleview before escaping the psychiatric center on her own, after she simply concluded that her 'boyfriend' on the inside wouldn't assist her in this beautiful scheme of adventurism/vigilantism? Well, it was a toy gem she ordered online while inside Belleview that she believed reflected/symbolized a special capitalism-race 'courage' and playfulness and one she'd use in her memory-writings on the outside about diamond-commerce 'integrity' in this modern America of great consumerism rhetoric (and securities!). When Ezzy 'escaped' Belleview, she made an (anonymous) vigilantism-duet comic-book child-like ('silly') stick-figure doodle re-presenting all her 'concern' for modern Homeland (post-9/11 era) citizenry 'commentary' regarding the quality of defense (of heroics!).

AMLAN SATAN: My darling/sweetheart Esmerelda's gone from Belleview (now), and I'll cherish the time/memory I'm keeping (deep in my brain/heart) with this cyber-journal and writing, perhaps for some kind of biography (about Ezzy!) in regards to the deep state of human brain consciousness-memory and its imprint/impact on decision-making and specifically on the rationalism behind 'American' heights (wow).

EZZY: "Now that I'm 'out' and about, I'll make a chess-cake cookie recipe/party presentation (with image!) on social-media and perhaps find a 'cool Tom/Dick/Harry' to persuade to become my Halloweentime vigilantism-angel partner in crime-sarcasm, but I'll never forget Satan (Journal-Entry, 2023)."