OCD

Mental contamination

I've tried to 

Been feeling so 

separate

I've sinned by existing, I beg to my pseudo god

Ask him for me suffer 42 reoccurring years of human purgatory

If I can only be okay in this moment

Before I fall asleep I have to touch the objects I can feel glaring at me while I sleep and repeat and repeat

Paranoid

Involuntary tears and picking black flies

He won't stop drilling into my mind

Look at me trying to exist

Trying a thought dichotomy, wishing the 'evil' thoughts

through the tunnels of my ears

they always leak back in 

spring cleaning 

and suicide suicide suicide

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

this is deep and different...that 42 is haunting...reminds me of Jackie Robinson...the suffering he went through...as he just tried to exist as a human being...we suffer a human purgatory on earth, and sometimes it drives us to hell and back...thus those thoughts of suicide...clean it all up...the spring cleaning...magical piece...