I love to hate LOVE

a song with some broken thoughts ....only for those who can feel.... and who are alone .... you are not !!

maybe i was a moment that passed away
like a rain drop
in that empty lake
like that only tree
in a forgotten place.....

do you still remember
how i look
or am i the old picture....

torn to pieces
for a child's play

i still remember
i think of you
i try to make you my past
my phase
you think we moved on
but i think i stopped
i lost you
i lost the battle
in this strange game

so tell me why i lost
it was never a game  
so tell me now
why i  cried
when it was all faith
i don't want to blame

but i've had enough
and now I love to hate Love.....

every night a dream a picture
of a happy place
so i get high
cuse in my dreams
i am so fine
i am the perfect guy
and every morning
 this guy sleeps
and it's like a rush of hate
the pain slowly eases
as the evening sun makes way
for the night
and i prepare
then i drink a bottle
for this guy's sake
and i wake up in my dream again
the old me and the old you
that sweet scene
in that charming theme.....

why have you gone all blind
looking at me like am a stone
 pushing me to that line
i see you have a new life
but did it give you new eyes
you fail to see i am failing
failing to let you go
falling for you again
everyday i fail inside....

and now this mind is crazy
it doesn't know
what's what
but it dreams of the past

so tell me why i lost
it was never a game  
so tell me now
why i  cried
when it was all faith
i don't want to blame

but i've had enough
and now i love to hate love.....

and one more night i cry
if you see me come by my side
i am never strong without you

but i don't hope for it and i don't mind
cuse  you're too blind for my night

and alone i have learnt enough
and now i love to hate love.....

Reviews

[emmajoy]

'.. and now this mind is crazy - it doesn't know - what's what - but it dreams of the past .. '

Such sadness in those words, wrapped in your tearful write. You've woven your tale in brief, emotional sentences, in parts rather hard to read cos of the combined font and vivid colour.. could be far softer perhaps; but is your poem, of course. You have a way with words,, the power of the feeling almost over.rides the shadow of.. gone-away.

.. and yet.. in spite of it all, there are feelings of post sweet dream. You might never remember every hour but you'll always remember what really matters.. that.. you.. loved and were loved. Let that final line fade.. if possible.

Perhaps.

[Asb]

Thanx for the review

[emmajoy]

You're very welcome.

[Otsana]

I really enjoyed the first paragraph, it was my favourite part of the poem. It's an awful thing to be left while still in love with someone, the mind wanders to all kinds of places when this happens and I think you've explored that well in this poem.

[Mescaline Butterfly]

"maybe i was a moment that passed away"

Superb opening line

[Asb]

thanx man !!

[stars are far]

I can 100% relate to that, i think it is the same story.
but you written that well. keep it up and stay strong

[Asb]

thanx yeaah.....sos.....

[stars are far]

If you feel like talking about it you can still message. anytime im here :)

[Coyote Poetry]

Great thoughts and ending in the poem. We are taught lessons and become wiser and maybe too careful.
"but i don't hope for it and i don't mind
cuse you're too blind for my night
and alone i have learnt enough
and now i love to hate love....."
Hate does replace love. Which is sad. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Asb]

thanks for the kind review :)

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome.

[Matching Socks]

I really enjoyed this, definitely has a sort of lyrical flow to it.
I found the different colours a bit distracting but enjoyed it overall.

[Asb]

thanks for the review, I have been thinking the same too about the colours....I will change it