Why am I inflicting pain on others?

Why am I inflicting pain on others? That is an old poem Written by Aldo Kraas

Why am I  inflicting pain on others?

What did they do to me?

That makes me so angry?

And when i am angry I feel like i want to hit somebody

That is terrible

Because I am hurting the other people

And that alone is called assault

Yes I can be charged with assault

And I will end up in jail

I been in Jail before

And it wasn't a nice place to be

God I know that I have to apologize to those that i hurt

God I am not sure if the people will accept my apologies

God I don't like to hurt people

God I  am a strong men

And I know that when I hit people I could kill them easily

God I need to stop hurting people

God I want to have friends and not enemies

God I love you

And I want you to know that

God I have lots of friends in my life

God my friends respects me

God why can't I respect my friends

Because my friends need my respect

God I am a human being

And you created this human being that is me

With your holy hands

God I feel more relaxed now

And I am happy to be relaxed

God I know that you love me

Because I am one of your children

God I promise that I will behave now

Because I need to behave now

God I need help with  my anger

God I am having a good night sleep

God I need to go to bed early every night

So that I can have a proper sleep

God I don't wake up tired anymore

I wake up feeling refreshed

God I want to worship you every day

God I have feelings

God I am taking my medication for depression

God I never miss my medication

God I am a good person

God winter is here

And I must tell you that I hate it

God outside is very cold

God I need to write my thoughts on my computer

So I don't forget it

God will you give me another chance

God I love myself

God I will pray for my dear friends

God I love the moon shining in the sky

God I can't wait for this day to end

Because I want to return to my bed

God I love my bed

God my bed is very cozy and warm

God don't ask me to sing you a song

Because I can't sing

God will I be here tomorrow

Because I just want to live

God I need to live my life now

Every single day

God I will meditate because by meditating it will help me to stay calmer

God I want to learn to forgive people

God I have to learn to have patience with people

God I want to stay out of the hospital

Because hospital is a terrible place to be

God there are people that supports me in my life

God I am feeling bad for hurting people

God I don't even know if people will accept my apologies

But I feel that I need to apologize to the people that I hurt

God i got money to buy my food

God I got to learn to love people

God I hope that I can forgive myself for doing bad things

God I know that we can't put a price on health

God I love my home

God my home is my sanctuary

God I want to live in peace

God I am a good Christian

God I need to have a balanced meal

God I know that you died on the cross for my sins

And came to judge me

God I don't mind that you judge me

Because that is your job to do

God I want you to bring the sun for me

Because I need the sun

God let me tell you how I feel

God I am feeling good about myself

God I am so sad that the birds had flown back south

Because I miss their symphony

God we said good buy to summer a long time a go

And now we said hello to winter

The winter is very long and boring

God I don't judge people

God I accept people the way they are

God I never smoked a cigarette

God I have healthy lungs

God I never drunk any alcohol

God I will stay sober

God life is tough

Good I have a hard life

God soon the morning will end and the afternoon will arrive

God please tell me that you love me

Because I want to hear from you that you love me

God in the winter it gets dark very early

And I hate that

God I have plenty of love to give to my friends

God I want to learn to deal with my anger

Because I feel that it is getting out of control

God I am hungry for your words

God please preach the bible to me

God use me where ever you need me

God I been sad now for a long time but I never cried

God I want you to end this day now

Please bring the night now

God let the moon shine in the sky

God I want to see the moon shining in the sky

God I want to be a part of your world

God I can't live without food or water

God please feed me every day

God i feel very bad about the things that did

God I want to hold you in my arms

God I want to kiss you

God we belong together

God we have a good relationship going

And I feel that we need to work together on our relationship

God please guide me where ever you want me to do

God I am not good with money and that is why I never have money on me

God when I have money I spend it very fast

God your my father and I am your child

God what more can i do for myself

God I am not feeling depress right now

God every Sunday I come to your house

God you are the healer and I feel that you have healed me

God I believe in you

God I trust you

And I know that I got to take care of my health

God I have to say good bye to you right now

Because I am going to bed

Don't worry God because I will take care of my hygiene

God right now I have lots of energy

God I am not feeling stressed out

God the trees are now bare for the winter

God this year is ending fast

God I worry about my anger issues

God I worry about my health

God I worry about my sleep

God I promise to be good

And not harm any body anymore

God I am not a killer

When I need you God I will pray to you

And I hope that you will answer my prayers

God the time went fast

It is now mid night and I still up writing away on my computer

God here I am praying to you

Today it is dark and grey

There is not much sun during the winter

God I am happy to be alive

God I know that I have a good life

God you never let me down

But I let you down so many times

And I want to say sorry  for letting you down

God it is hard to express my feelings when I talk

I prefer to write my feelings on my computer

God I already made so many mistakes in my life

And I have learned from my mistakes

God I don't want to talk about the past

God I want to talk about my future

God I need to talk about my future now

God it is only winter and it is a warm winter night

God rescue me when I am feeling depress

God I don't want to feel depress anymore

God I have so much to be thank full for

God I am very generous when I give something to others

God I don't want to fight anymore

Because I find fighting to be very bad for me

God I want to live that life that I live that is full of freedom

God I don't want to think about bad stuff

God I want to throw the bad stuff in the garbage can

God the world needs freedom

When will there be freedom in this world?

God mental illness is not a joke

God I have a mental illness

God there are countries that have war

And th innocent people are dying every day

God please tell me when the war will end?

There are young children being trained to be soldiers

In this brutal war

There are shortage of food and medical supplies

They are blowing up churches houses but not hospitals

The people who make the bombs to use in the war are getting rich

People it is time to stop the war now

This brutal war is going on for so long

Some people are suffering from post stress disorder

Why kids can't be kids?

Why kids can't play?

Kids have the right to their education

It is time to stop child labour in the third world countries

We are polluting the earth

We are killing the wild life

And marine life

The oceans are already polluted

What are we going to do when there wont be anymore fish in the oceans?

I don't think that we will be able to save the marine life and the wild life

Soon I believe that the fishermen will be out of jobs

We have so many refuges living in Canada

And Canada is their home also

We are so lucky to live in Canada

Because there is no war in Canada

There are people from different countries living in Canada

God I am not afraid to die

I know that I will die some day

I don't know the hour or the day that I will die

God I still have a life to live

And I will live it

God I love my life

Because it is simple

God I need some fresh air

I will go out soon and get some fresh air

God I never took peace for granted

God I don't take my health for granted

God I am taking good care of my health every single day

God put  smiles on my face

So that I can smile

I think people want to see me happy and not sad

I know that I have a beautiful smile

God I want to live in the real world

Because I need to live in the real world

God I am a dreamer

And I don't dream big

Yes God no body will pay me to dream

God we will praise you every day

God there are times that I need a break from people

God I never lied to you

God I am always telling you the truth

God I must say that I am  a bully

God I am feeling so ashamed   for have behaved badly

Do you understand me?

God I need to be a roll model for others

God I don't know where to go for help when I am upset

God should I turn to my friends and tell them that I am upset?

Will my friends understand that I am upset?

Will my friends help me to calm down when I am upset

God I know that I can turn to my friends for help

God I very to live my life to the fullest every day

God so many people had broken my heart already

God can you fix my broken heart

People don't call me a saint

I am not a saint

Because I am always hurting

God I want to live la vida loca

God I am not hearing voices

There is no body talking to me

When I sleep I snore very loud

It is terrible that it is happening

I sleep all thru the night

And I never wake up in the middle of the night

Sleep is very important for me

I need to go to bed early every night so that I can get a proper night sleep

God watch me while I sleep

God I will get over with my sadness

God I believe in children

God I am the hero in the children's life

God I  had dreamed that I reached the sky

And I had written my name on the sky

God I  am feeling rested today

Because I just woke up now

God i am not a stranger to my depression

God sometimes I feel that I been on a roller coaster ride

And it keeps moving very fast non stop

God I am afraid of heights

God I never want to sleep in during the morning

Because if I sleep in in the morning I will be waisting the day

God you gave me a blessing with your holy hands

God I am not selfish

God I will never hurt you

Please try to understand that

God I  will try to keep mii cool

I know that will be hard to do

But I got to do it now

God I blame myself for hurting people

I will forget about it now

And move on with life

It makes me sad to know that i hurt people

God I cried so much today

Because I am sad

And there are tears that are falling from my eyes

God please wipe the tears from my eyes

God I  never bottle my feelings up

God I let my feelings out

God I  must tell people when I am angry

I don't know if people will understand that I am angry

God I  am up already and it is a new day

It is two in the morning

I am full of energy

I sometimes act on impulse

That is a terrible thing to do

God I am a people's person

God I want to be around people

God you gave me a brain to think

So I must use it

God it is winter time

And the weather keeps changing

That is how people get sick

People tell me that I am a good men

And I believe that I am

God I hope that people are praying for me

Because i need some prayers