A Struggle

Staring into the rippling mirror

I glimpse you once again

You smile so cunningly

Just like that Peter Pan

Sometimes I wish

Like you, I could release

Never care for anyone

Simply being free

And yet, I understand

That this is hardly truth

For I hold true freedom still

While your vision remains askew

You ask that I give it all

The things that truly matter

But I know that if I release

My grievance exceeds the laughter

Angry

Disturbed

You stare at me

Perturbed

Why can’t you catch me

Ensnare and best me

Someone so small

Aimless and basic

Stupid humanity

Intrinsic instability

Yet fighting

Hoping, striving

Your constant whining

Yet refusing the dying

You keep on igniting

Stretching beyond the lying

Why can’t you

Stifle your crying

Take the knife and

Cut your life short

No… I can’t

I won’t

I refuse

Take your knife and put yourself to this abuse

For if Christ is for us

How can we ever lose

If we ask for what is good

And of His mercy choose

I smite your rippling grimace

I wipe your dreamy face

You’ll never hold this girl

Even should you chase

Once, you held me tightly

There was no comfort in your arms

Just a cold, sinking emptiness

Despite your ever present charms

Now I choose a freedom

That beckons me to feel

To accept all of the heartbreak

The sincerity of which is real

I could numb the hurt

Never feel anything at all

But I’ve seen how that all works

So for this temptation, I will not fall

Reviews

[mia-pia]

I really enjoyed this piece of poetry Alicia. stylistically speaking it is very well done including the use of repetition, rhythm, and rhyme. I found the way you wrote this, dripping with confusion and hurt very impressive, but what I found most interesting in your writing is the room for interpretation that is left open. I am unable to tell what caused a conflict between the two people in this poem until read a few times and it creates a kind of mystery that is both enjoyable and thought-provoking. Hope you continue to publish your amazing words!

[Alicia-Veracity]

Thank you so much! I really appreciate hearing your thoughts!