A Question of Where

What shall I say?

Where am I now?

Lost in the madness

Angry toward myself

I want to punch

To kick and to bleed

I want to be beaten

Until I don’t feel

I’m so frustrated

Despising myself

I wish I said more

That closure was felt

Yet here I sit

With no more time

Plagued with regret

Inside, slowly dying

But what can I do?

I have to release

Open my hands

Please, give her back to me

I should be grateful

For the time that was spent

Not greedy for more

Yet my heart won’t relent

Help me, please

I hate every moment

The thought of leaving

That lonely flight home again

Too many tears

To drown me in sorrow

Still, I hold on to hope

Somehow for tomorrow

What will You do?

I need You to see me

I know I am nothing

But won’t you stop the bleeding?

What can I do?

What more can I say?

Will You remember me?

All these words that I pray?

Help me to trust

Lend me Your strength

To pass through the fire

Emerge from this pain