Never Wanted

.i...i never wanted to be scared...

I find you present

But not hearing.

Your voice may be calm

But your thoughts are snearing.

The black and white pictures

You paint in my head,

Are becoming shrouds

For what's meant to be said.

You think that you're

Protecting me

From all the things

I cannot see.

When honestly

This is the most I've prayed in years.

You were out living

"The hand they raised"

While I sat alone, choking on tears.

I can't even be sure

If you actually went through with it.

I stopped because

Fighting with you is a pointless fit.

I had hoped that maybe

Our love would be stronger than those who

"Underestimate".

But I'm not sure it was now

Believe me - your will that night was nothing to

Congratulate.

Author's Note

My Love,
My Haven...

why have you put me in this state of mind...why...
[a rhetorical question i don't expect an answer to..]

Reviews

Well. I really like this write it was very interesting. I am not sure that I fully understand what you mean. Are you feeling this pain? Or is it just a write?