Debate

Every breath I take is thicker than smoke.
With every gasp comes a painful choke.

These lungs slowly fill up with ice.
This is what I get,
This is how I pay the price.

For loving him was my mistake.
Handed him my heart to break.

Using the shards to hate him back.
Poison lips speak of lies
Remembering the cries.

Maybe it's my conscience telling me to
Wake up from this nightmare.
Or maybe I'm just stubborn,
And don't feel like playing fair.

He needs to wallow in his suffering
As I did with mine.
It'll just take him a little more time.
Maybe it's not another bad dream,

Maybe it's real now.
So why do I not scream,
Why can't I figure out how.

The air I breathe is killing me.
Packed with dying memories tonight.
Ghosts of him not yet free.
Help me set things right.

Because I can't debate this fight.

Author's Note

To Those That Have Hurt Me -