I Apologize

I'm sorry for all the pain
I ever caused your heart.
I'm sorry for all the tears
That made you fall apart.

I'm sorry I'm never
There anymore.
I know I told you forever
Just like before.

So I'm sorry for the heart aches
And all the little mistakes.
I'm sorry for the promises I broke
And all of the cold words I ever spoke.

I'm sorry I wasn't there
when your heart almost stopped beating.
It's not fair
Only because I caused the bleeding.

I'm not sure if you still believe in me
To be there when you can't see.
I'm not sure if you trust me to lend a hand
When no one else will understand.

So I'm sorry for the silence
That seems to overwhelm my essence.
I'm so completely sorry,
I miss your presence.

I lay here wondering why,
As these tears I slowly cry.
People say I cry too much,
How would they know the pain that I've touched?

I spread myself across the grass tonight,
Scared, but I feel alright.
I keep imagining you here beside me telling me it'll be okay,
But I'm thinking about this too much,
And I don't know if you'll want to stay.

Right now I'm holding my own hand
Because the one person who knows me is gone,
For now.
I'm not sure who else will understand
I need to bring you back, but I'm not sure how.

Reviews

[she makes me weird]

This piece is absolutly incredible. It seems to flow straight from the heart. It's so realistic and a little hard to read for me because I've been in the same position, pondering what can be done to once again be next to that person and feel okay. I love this piece!

[Lorraine Pearson]

This is a heartfelt sincere write if I've ever seen one. I really like how it flows, and that you keep it in the first person, claiming all you feel... there is so much pain in this--and it is quite beautiful.
~Lorraiyne