Time's Junky

 

A large portion of my being,

 

    Revolves around the ticking of the clock.

 

The reason for not clearly seeing,

 

    I've become Time's jock.

 

 

 

Baby you've caught me in a jam,

 

And I'm not sure where to turn.

 

I love you but lately you're a different man,

 

 

 These tears shouldn't have to burn.

 

 

 

I thought I quit the drinking,

 

But my attempts were deprived.

 

You haven't the idea what I've been thinking,

 

Let alone how I've survived.

 

 

 

I wish that I could reject my sense of injury,

 

And then the injury itself would disappear.

 

But I've been struck gingerly,

 

And that tends to interfere.

 

 

 

You know,

 

For all the sad words of tongue and pen,

 

The saddest are these, and they go

 

"It might have been"

 

 

 

They say,

 

That the hottest love has the coldest end.

 

That's a game I refuse to play,

 

I pray you never tell me you had to pretend.

 

 

 

Remember our talks at 4 in the morning?
When life couldn't compare to how I felt about you
Everything we wanted and what we could have been
Our future has fallen through
It has been a year of life for my heart
I could feel you were the one for me
But, love, there are times alone
Why is it hard to see?
I beg and plead, "Open up"
I push toward you; you pull away
But as I walk off my heart is pulled
You were begging me to stay
Like you clipped my wings, I am grounded
With you for a while, I stayed in fear
In silence I watched your self-destruction
But my heart was far from here
February nights brought tears to my eyes
I know in my heart what I should do
But I cannot live without you
I pushed; you pulled, you needed me too
In truth, I thank you for everything you have taught me
The strength you've given me, the lessons I've learned
And even though we're so far apart,
You still have that place in my heart that you once had yearned

 

 

 

I am Time's Junky and always will be,

 

And it doesn't matter how long I have to.

 

Because I'll do anything for you and me,

 

Anything to forever love you.

 

Author's Note

you all seem to be confused judging by your comments.
my fiance and myself haven't separated at all - we've just had some very rough times these past few weeks.
but things are mending better than i thought they would.

Thank you for your concern though.

~*AC*~

Reviews

[Dark Daughters]

This was an interesting poem it was erratic and that was a good thing it seemed to set the mood very well for the poem. Good job. Also on another note the erratic flow does coincide with what a real junky would feel like.

[OceanTropic]

Wow, this is heartbreaking but I loved it.

"It might have been" That completely broke my heart. The whole "hottest love has the coldest ending" was new to me, Ive never heard it before but now that you've mentioned it, it makes so much sense. I know what you mean EXACTLY with the whole push and pull. You want them to talk to you, get close to you, tell you their problems their thoughts, but they dont, and you end up pushing even more and then say "its okay" or "its not important, dont worry about it" UGH

I know the frustration and the hurt from it. I really do and I can relate 100%. It really is a silent killer. I loved this piece, I think especially cuz I can relate to it so much. Thank you so much for sharing, it helped me get alot of my chest too just by reading it and having my emotions stare me in the face. I loved it.

[Lalli]

wow... the emotions are instense of the constant battle of tryingt o be with someone who has a gaurded heart and the effortless attempts to love him through it.. admierable sweetie. very well written.. times junky CLEVER! sorry it took me so long to read this i've been incredibly busy.

much lvoe n respect

-Lalli

[Your Tasty Field Adviso..]

somehow, in my mind, i got it. it's not confusing. it is put together very well. i really like it. i enjoyed reading it.

[Cats Eye]

interesting write, and yes it is very confusing, yet the confusion is what makes this peom such a great read, I enjoyed this piece

[ConcreteFantasy]

No in depth feedback here, I really liked it. You can tell that it was written with love. I just had a problem with the formatting. It took away from the read.

[Gavin Keary]

I truly am sorry for the love you lost. Your emotions come out in your poetry, and this one is no different. A great addition to my favs.

[ANNA]

Sad to see love not last..This was a very heavy piece
Love the way you style it
and the way you put love into words
Makes it all the better to read
I loved this part even though the whole poem was good

They say,
That the hottest love has the coldest end.
That's a game I refuse to play,
I pray you never tell me you had to pretend.

Thank you
sennd me more. I love to read your work

Anna

[.::Cup^E^Cake*RaWr!*::.]

Awww I love this!!!
I've been there!!!

Lovely. Good job it was wow.