"It's all ok" Would be a Lie

It was the mis-placed note in your voice

Revealing what was to come.

Things were changed, and in the end

We are better off as friends.

 

It's ok, I totally understand

And it actually really means alot,

You not playing games.

I'm keeping a well-valued friend.

 

Am I ok? Of course.

Don't worry about me, I mean

We're still friends, right?

Everything's going to be alright.

 

But when the phone-call ends

And you leave me to my thoughts,

My self-assurance fades.

And I realize I'm standing alone.

 

Starting like the sting of a bee,

It escalates, enveloping my person.

I look around and find your jacket,

The only bandage for this pain.

 

With the obscure comfort that only

Crying brings, the tears roll hot

Down my face, the hurt escapes.

But everything's going to be alright.

 

I'm grasping at your jacket

Pulling it tighter around me.

The tears come faster, the pain harder.

Slowly, rocking insues.

 

Am I ok? I will be.

My mentality changes to comfort myself

As I rock myself to sleep, I speak,

"We are better off as friends."

Reviews

[Pax Analog]

Ah, one deeply commiserates -- and sets the jacket on fire. ;-)

Pardon my cheekiness. As yet another soul too familiar with sorrow and the ashes left. . .you get the drift.

The only way a broken intimate relationship survives a shift to friendship is if there are deep spiritual, vocational, or comparable ties. The bitter ending cannot rise into a redefinition from those ashes with substance to the phoenix bird.

This reader strongly empathizes with the poet's dilemma. . .and returns to the idea of burning the jacket, not even out of anger, but a kind of purification.

Strong soulful work.

[Walkingblind]

This is so deep I really like it. This poem deals with what everybody has
been through, sometimes deep down we don't want to be friends. I
mean that's why the relationship went deeper than friendship.
The revelation is that you do lose something by being just
friends. Great poem keep'em coming

[Colby]

Wow...this is my favorite...Love the imagery! I feel like I'm there!