Why not??

Yesterday’s experience doesn’t seem to translate...

Its night and dark so the mind feels safe to wander, though it’s a false sense of security. In daylight the multitude of senses occasionally report back that which isn’t there. That assault causes the mind to retreat back into its shell. Now, within that shell is chaos, exponential threads with multiplying themes and threats. Fear takes over... Fear of the consequences of yesterday’s actions and foreboding thoughts of what might lie in the future. I pause to think reasonable and rational thoughts but my mind locks me out. I can’t control my own mind. How can I learn from yesterday when I can’t access those experiences and lessons? How do I learn? I don’t... I just go through the motions with the rest of humanity, never learning, just eternal doing...

Author's Note

That which is helpful is appreciated...

Reviews

[Linxer]

Nice work TV. The fear, insecurity and confusion of your narrator is effectively captured. I dare say anyone who's ever grappled with uncertainty, particularly about the future, will relate to this piece. I'd only ask why it's all in one paragraph rather than broken up into stanzas? Of course not everyone needs to follow the traditional format, but sometimes it's intriguing to tease your readers with a bit at a time, rather than everything in one go. Makes the transition more suspenseful, I suppose. If that makes sense! I'm not much of a critic. Really like it though! :)

[TV]

Linzer, good suggestion! I tend to write what comes to me without editing, thus the paragraph... thanx, T.

[Linxer]

Ah, so you're channeling a bit of Jack Kerouac? He did a lot of writing without editing. I believe he considered spontaneous writing to be the purest, because it expressed a thought in its rawest form. Whereas editing was "covering up what you were trying to say, for the sake of what others will find readable". Can't abide that rule myself, but I can see why others admired him for it :)

[TV]

A real dilemma... see my “prison or pallet”. I think we share the same sense what creativity is. :-)