Which is it?

Endings and beginnings

Aren’t beginnings and endings essentially the same? I must end one activity in order to start another. But my mind tells me that ending and beginning are simultaneous. How can I have a sense of regret and a sense of joy at the same time? I must compartmentalize. My decision to end is based on certainty while my decision to begin is based on hope. Can I regret and hope at the same time? I can’t regret in the future and can’t hope in the past. I’m torn by the conflict. I’m confused by the realities and the possibilities. My mind loses sight of reason and I lose my sense of control. I’m just drifting through life without that sense of beginning and ending that I tried desperately to understand. I plead, I beg, I shout, I scream for that new beginning but that tether to the ending drags me down to mediocrity, to the arcade of those spirits who just exist, without a sense of hope or regret.

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[John the Baptist]

Maybe there is no beginning or end. Maybe there is only now.