digging the scissors in deeper

i wrote this during a harsh breakup. it's the same one as "grudge".

beautifully painful complacent lie
told at heart's contempt,
plain as the day of Ides;
it envelopes many agonies,
enslaves many souls,
captivates the innocent passerby

 

sinking,
etching it's wretched claws
into my heart;
gasping, grasping
my demons straining to drag me on
into the horrific, atrocious depths
depths to which no mortal dares delve

 

trapped in this hell, the euphoric
nightmarish horror,
this eternal paradox
that binds us to hate
to want
envy, suffering, despair

 

living in an umbra
a perfect disaster
as the shame of betrayal elicits
a new desire:
redemption,
a glimpse of the eternal fire that
consumes all that's left

 

sustaining a shattered mind,
a dying heart and broken dreams
these majestic words we bind,
we bind to distant realms and
constant themes

 

a static slumber,
awakening the fantasies
of dreams past
in my extremis.

Reviews

[Sarah]

This is very deep & dark, and not what I was expecting from the title (i was actually pleasantly surprised!) your vocabulary and use of words is very beautiful and eloquent. I love the last stanza the best & great job at capturing these dark emotions without sounding cliche (as can sometimes happen!) :D!

[Warlord Kitten]

Wow...i really like it...but so dark...and scary in a way...something i am not used to seeing from you

I love u