The Heart of the Matter

I have never been one to wound for kicks,

Slit throats for fun,

Rip still-beating hearts out of chests -

Just for s***s and giggles.

 

No…

 

I paint pretty pictures

With candy coated deceit

And shoot myself in the foot

So you can live your prideful life in peace.

I’ll take the bullets

Through my permeable flesh,

I’ll wear that mask with the sorrowful frown.

 

But you look away

And the guise shatters into truth.

At the heart of the matter

All that remains

Is that it wasn’t me…

It was all you.

Author's Note

Comments? Suggestions?

Reviews

[Lyan]

Ah yes, it seems that many of us are quick to say "I'm sorry", "it's my fault" instead of the other person saying it first to us. I wonder why is that? that at times even when we are not the ones who are at fault still say sorry.why do we feel the need to be the ones to take on the role of being the bigger person.hmm.. thanks for writing this poem and sharing it:)

[Ashira Macy]

Thanks Lyana, yeah I wish I could just outright say "Hey, you are the problem here, not me." I can't bring myself to do that though.

[Lyan]

Well maybe in time you will be able to say it. There are many things I thought I wouldn't say but life has made me become more forthcoming i guess.

[joshua deathdealer]

OK so this one is awesome!! I wouldn't change a thing. It rolls beautiful and leaves the reader wanting more. Superb if you ask me.

[Ashira Macy]

Thanks so much Joshua, that is very encouraging. =D

[Arrinae]

How often do we as humans willingly suffer the abuse of others, be it mental, emotional, or physical in order to simply keep the peace? I know I do it every day, and have done it since I was a child. Even now, I know I should stop, and stand up. To let the mask fall, but breaking bad habits are sometimes harder than pulling teeth.

Well written and well received. Thank you for the share, dear!

[Ashira Macy]

Exactly right, much too often in my opinion. Being a pacifist can be a good option, but you do take on a lot of blame from others.

[Arrinae]

Yep, and get angry but have no outlet because of not wanting to cause issues or others.

[Barbara Walker]

Ah, the masks we all wear! Really like the way you expressed this, a subject all can relate to. A universal theme, expressed in your own beautiful unique way. Kudos to you!

[Ashira Macy]

Thank you kindly Barbara, I am happy it was relatable!