Left and Right

These lyrics are some of, I'm sure, many to be made in future, about something that deeply troubles me.

This heart of love has trouble breathing
and lungs of tar with scattered breathing
I have no scars, but I need healing
I left it up to you

My mind would race without a brake
and in a panic pulse and shake
I need some help to dull the ache
I left it up to you

Your hands in hers and mine in rage
put thoughts to pen and ink to page
reactions too violent to gauge
I left it up to you

You are what I needed most
the comfort of a lingering ghost
I know you'll say I have no right
you left it up to me that night

Excuse my attempts at civility
when all I want is to get angry
I'm right to feel the hurt so deep
I gave it up to you

Serenade me with all your reason
hate is the spark that lights the season
fires will rage and scream out treason
I gave it up to you

Your hands are burned and mine in rage
put thoughts to pen and ink to page
reactions too violent to gauge
I gave it up to you

You are what I needed most
the comfort of a lingering ghost
I know you'll say I have no right
you gave it up to me that night

You are what I needed most
You are what I needed most
I know you'll say I have no right
you left it up to me

You were what I needed most
the comfort of a lingering ghost
I let you go, but was it right?
I gave you up that night