Everybody's fool

People see one side of me when I wear sleeved shirts... then there's the side people will forever judge me for.

All the cover-up and lipstick can't erase the demon in-side

it's an illusion created by a sick lie I hide

Once I pull up my sleeves, I reveal a darker side.

Gawks strike me from left to right.

Their hungry eyes are glued to the eerie sight.

"She doesn't look like the type."

I can't soak up the sun on the beach with-out

tasting the tears rolling down my cheeks.

people are starring at me.

My past is pasted on my arms for the world to see,

While other people can run from their mistakes.

When is it my turn to be free?

 

Reviews

[Chris]

Our realities find us when we're most vulnerable and how we dealt then AND now isn't the definition of our existence... only our next breath is the future as we live it.

[Iris]

Amazing. I can't do poems, so for you to have written such a heart-wrenching one is unimaginable. So many talented poets here at Writer's Cafe. I like how you mention the 'hungry eyes' of people. That's so true. They're always sniffing for ways to pull dirt on you. Keep writing Kimberly.

[Adam Adams]

Oh.. that's heartfelt.
Well, sometimes, the past even demolishes the whole ride of life so sometimes, leaves the present with such "eerie sights". Scars're meant to be vanished but the aches given by past can never be filled with "faith".. so I guess, you speak the heart .. pen down deep words. Your words belonging to tears which further making readers feel how wicked the world could be deep inside when it comes to desperation. You write from the depth .. the core.. the bottom of your very heart not to impress others but to express people the pain .. the feelings.. the disgust of your naive spirit, somehow. Bless you, Kim.

[Brian Csati]

A deep poem where I can relate to the subject matter. Especially at the end.
Well done,
-Brian Csati

[Relic]

The past can catch up to us in uncomfortable ways. There is almost a karmic side to this you can't escape. Every girl who cuts should read this and learn from it. Sorry you have to go through such devastating effects.

[~ Kimberly ~]

It's too the point where I'm afraid to lose my job if they find out about my nasty scars, and my scars will affect my profession like tattoos. I love this piece because I know there's other people out there who can relate and I'm trying to reach out to them. I want to remind them they aren't alone.

[~ Kimberly ~]

And to boys and girls who are debating to pick up on the disgusting habit, to convince them it isn't a short pain reliever. It leaves life-long affects that they will DEEPLY regret as I do. It's difficult to live a normal life.

[Relic]

I've seen so many poems on the subject and I can never understand it, but I know there's deep-rooted feelings involved that can not be satiated through normal processes. I will always refer people to this poem whenever I see someone writing about cutting. They need to see what you've written here.

[~ Kimberly ~]

Wonderfully said. Thanks for your feedback and warming words.

[Relic]

My pleasure.

[Kristen Grace]

I really love this, very well worded and well done.

[~ Kimberly ~]

Thank you! :)

[Ralph Rosell]

Wow, super nice ending to the poem! So well written Kimberly! Love how that line cut the poem from the gawks perspective to show that she's different somehow.. and how her past haunts her so badly... Amazing!

[~ Kimberly ~]

Thank you for your kind words. :) This poem means alot to me so I'm flattered you enjoyed and understand.

[Leo]

I'm not a professional review but I'll share my two cents..I admire especially your ending: "When is it my turn to be free?"..I like how even though your poem is short yet powerful..speaks from the heart..I'm also into dark writing so feel free to check my poem - The Valley..you will find that even men suffer!
Have a nice day and keep up the good spirit :)

[~ Kimberly ~]

Thanks so much for your input. This one was powerful for me to write. :)

[Imperfection2aT]

It's beautiful. I've been through some stuff like this, so I can understand the pain of having everyone see your scars. This is a relatable topic and you've done it really well.

[~ Kimberly ~]

This one pretty emotional for me. I'm glad you think so. It's a pretty tough fight even after you won the first war. It's like it never ends.