Propellers

Fruitful, healthful, mindful,
Principled, orderly, fair
Nonchalant awe
Ornate frivolous pursuits perhaps
Emotionally buried mentally forgotten
One day to recount all
all without conscoiuousness
Knee-jerk when you're ready, come to terms with

You felt pinpointed in some way
Nervous constrained in your action
Squeezed and tied up in your soul center in your permanent dwelling and abode
But there was no evil-genius or mastermind, only conditioning, training wiring and synapses