Its Me...

Compilation piece between me and my writing partner

 

 

(Vee)

Apparently it's me

And anything that I've said previously

Was a lie

Because I swear I wanted honesty

And it stands before me

5'4

Naked

Her intentions clear from the onset

She's willing to be

Mine

And not willing to lie

And I'll never have to vy

For anything

Attention

Affection

Or time

And in my mind

I am not ready

For what she's ready for

 

(Kat)

And I've over explained

More than once

That it's me

Not her

But that refrain

Falls on deaf ears

And a heart that

Has heard this before

A mouth that has said this before

And before it was done after

After the loving

After time had passed

And feelings invested

One sided but still true

I've been better this time

Maybe

After the loving

After time has passed

And feelings invested

Both sides, its true

It's me, truly

Running with no shoes on

Thru back alleys

Filled with cut glass and trash

From past relationships

Gone wrong

And "new" women standing on the corners

Tempting me to future bad relationships

Gone wrong

And there she stands

Saying nothing

Do nothing

Offering everything

As I run past

 

 

(Vee)

And I run fast

Out of sight

Less on mind

And less on mind

Yields lesser time

Wasted

Living in her imaginary world

Of coming home to home cooked meals

Of morning kisses

And masaging heals

Discussing long days that

Are eased by Merlot over candle light

While kids are studying

That nothing moves faster than the speed of light and

Parenthetical

Cotangents and signs

And I know signs

That no matter what

Fairy tales are not real to me

Happiness

Doesn't seem real to me

And all that she's offering

Sounds good on paper

But when it comes time to sign

My ink loses its flavor

Begin to see vapors

Of what my life won't ever be

 

 

(Kat)

Because of me

And I accept that

I'm living that

Past hurts

Trials and tribulations

Hidden scars

Pulsing every time she nears

Fears rising

To face them is to face me

And I'm not ready

Running

Knowing I was a part of the failure

A reason for some of the failure

Keeps me running

No oxygen needed

Watch me breath

In and out

Of relationships that don't matter

With women that don't matter

Cause it's easier

To love a sinner than a saint

Saints offer forgiveness

And healing

I don't want that

Right

Now

I want the expected outcome

Of merging two negatives

Zero

Nothingness

Fills my heart

Running

No air

Watch me breathe

In and out

 

 

(Vee)

From a mouth that has said this before

And before it was done after

After the loving

After time had passed

And feelings invested

One sided but still true

That I am destined for

Singleness

Solitude

Solidarity

Individuality

Independence

A life of me

Solely

Because in the end that's all that I will ever have

And I am the only one that can make me come

To this conclusion

That perfection is way too perfect

For me

 

Reviews

[Jay W Valentine]

"Cause it's easier
To love a sinner than a saint
Saints offer forgiveness
And healing
I don't want that
Right
Now
I want the expected outcome."

More true words are hard to speak. This back and forth piece is such a great idea. Both sides of the story shown all at once. Everything to contemplate, everything on the table now... but the way it sounds, the problem is that it wasn't always that way. There's history here. I like that. Isn't it great that near the end is when all the truths are out?

Fantastic.