1:30 AM / March 18, 2016

this isnt really my usual style of writing

 but its something experimental

i really dont have an easy time 

expressing myself

despite my poetry. 

.

the other day i was put in the perfect position to spill so much that was on my mind

but i couldnt

and all that night it pained me

and all last night it pained me

and here it is at 1:30am in the morning still bugging me.

. 

but I smile

because the company was so missed

and it's worth the arguments with myself

because they

are them

.

the unintentional heartstrings 

pain me the most

but I'm powerless

if I touch them in any way

everything just starts getting dark

.

i fear getting in trouble 

fear losing either

and fear hurting both

but i just know

its inevitable 

Reviews

[Lighthouse]

The only thing I can deduce from this is you're having an affair?

[Blut Gemalt Rosen]

not quite......

[Lighthouse]

You want to have an affair?

[Blut Gemalt Rosen]

no.... not that either...

[Lighthouse]

You're thinking about watching a show that deals with someone having an affair? :/

[Blut Gemalt Rosen]

dont worry about it, silly. just admire the brain vomit

[Lighthouse]

As long as I don't have to clean it up. :D

[Blut Gemalt Rosen]

no worries there, no need for that