The Divorcee Chronicles pt. 2 "He's Understandably Confusing"

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"Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass, glued to the table. No one can find the 'rewind button' girl, so cradle your head in your hands....... and breathe, just breathe"

                                         Anna Nalick, "Breathe(2AM)"

 

 

the divorcee' chronicles part 2 

("He's Understandably Confusing")

                       by Brjden "Bridgette" Crewe

 

Previously at the end of part 1....

 

And if you don't help me, I might

Never find another like you!!

And with tears in my eye sight,

I stand before you and ask...

 "Will you please......

save my life?"

 

 (continued)

I think to myself

He wants me to save his life?

 

He's so blind!!!

But, I need to see for him...right?

 

I sit & wait with the patience of an isolated mountain

As he debates our inevitable fate with a confused look on his ruggedly difficult face

Counting................

Seconds turn into uneventful decades seemingly

But our relationship realistically have been years of dramatic mysteries that could completely SINK our history and leave it tasting 'BITTERSWEET' 

 

He's so deaf!!!!

He couldn't even hear

the hymn that my love

sings out in front of him!!!

 

Waiting...

I wait for him to see my entirety

To swim inside of my love that I present to him

passionate, repeatedly tested, wrapped inside of an impenetrable gift box nested for his unwrapping

 

The love that I have for him

replenishes like the blood

of a healthy, pumping heart

with a rhythm that starts & end as a fetus

resting peacefully inside her mother's garden  

 

It beats only for him

When he cries, I weep equally, matching him

tear for tear as his pain

becomes the same shared reciprocally

in our disdain

 

Everything in me, my friends, my family, even the mirror is telling me, to move on

but when I move...

I move...

    towards...

                Love

 

All my love can only be found

within this man

 

And I love him with the rage

 of a fire burning

Of dry oak soaked in gasoline!

 

What's wrong with men?

If God made them any dumber they would live underwater with gills & swimming fins!

 

Doesn't he know that if he gave himself to me completely

I wouldn't pain

but lovingly care for his heart

and tame

the misery from his past

that he desperately holds claim!

I would love him tremendously

trembling the spirits of his divorce!

Blessing his force with my Ye Yo

and giving life to his NEXT LIFE

with me as his halo!   

That's the way women are simply made...

to love

 

We endure, we conquer,

We mother the fathers

And we shine, refine

and simply define...

                             LOVE

 

I'm thinking all of this, then I ask...

 

"Why can't you tell me what happened

with your wife?

Why must you hold on to a pain that reigns

within your love life?

I want to love you!

I'm trying to love you fully and true!

But I can't go at it alone,

and walk this path without you!"

"I know....."

So tell me why you won't let me inside?

"Because I'm not only divorced

My wife....She died"

 

 

TO BE CONTINUED...

Author's Note

Before you ask..... Yes this is all true, except we didn't rhyme when we spoke! LOL I wanted to write as this woman. Though I love to write as different characters, it was difficult to write as her because she was so close to me and instead of being 100% creative, I had to empathize with her which only made me feel bad because I know now how she could have possibly felt. Even though I'm putting myself out there, it's surprisingly fun and cathartic! I really want to love this woman, but the divorce and the loss is a little too much. It's easy to say "time heals wounds", but I challenge that theory. I hope you stick around for what's next. I hope you all have read pt 1 or this may be a little confusing......

I almost wish I didn't include the last 4 lines. People focus on those as oppose to understanding the core of this one. And also, because I've been asked, "Ye Yo" is 'mother' in Swahili.

Reviews

[Lyrical Love]

i hate you first for sending this to me while i am trying to watch my favorite tv show-GREY'S ANATOMY! secondly for posting this! and asking me to read it. Yes, it is an awesome piece of course but, the content has me flippin' crying, and wondering why. this is too much to be lured in by your funny little avatar, and for you to possess the characteristics of a writer that equates to some of my favorites that have many books published! (i feel like i can't breath)
this makes me think that my problems are so minuscule in comparison. reading this was like forbidden sex-saying stop but actually wanting more.
You always amaze me!!

[An owl on the moon]

Brilliantly expressive, and your note at the end brings a new dimension to the words. You have a way of bringing such an emotional power to your works, and here exists the pain, the loss, the longing that is so defined by love. Amazing piece...

[RGame]

Very deep and emotional. You are a genius, stay strong brother!!!
Here is one of my favorite parts ~

"Why can't you tell me what happened with your wife?
Why must you hold on to a pain that reigns within your life? I want to love you Bridge!
I'm trying to love you fully and true!
But I can't go all the way, and walk this path without you!"
"I know....."
So tell me why you won't let me inside?
"Because I'm not only divorced
My wife....She died

Bravo!!!

[~angelalala~]

"It beats only for him
When he cries, I weep equally, matching him
tear for tear as his pain" great lines. if you truly love someone, you do fel their deepest pain. seems you a master story teller, with a great play with your rhyme. "we shine, refine and simply define..........LOVE"
now i'm longing to read the rest. time doesn't really heal all wounds, they never go away, sure pain may fade & dull, but if you sit & think about your loss, the pain never fully goes away, no matter who much time passes. a great write. can't wait to read more.

[Bella]

Okay, so this may shock you, but I felt kind of like I was going to cry. I know, it's crazy. You've read my work, and you know how depressing everything is, but when I read this I got this lump in my throat and my eyes teared up. Honestly, this is the first time anybody's work on here has made me almost cry.

I think it's because there is so, so much emotion in this. It's unbelievable. The fact that this is true, made it even sadder. And the ending, wow.

"Because I'm not only divorced
My wife....She died"

I wish I could give a better review, but I'm really blown away by this. You have outdone yourself, Bridgey.

[Lalli]

Bridgey my man,

Sorry i didn't read this last night, yesterday was a loooonog day. pulled a double.

I like how you flipped from male, to female perspective to male again (very challenging). you did a great job with this too man, this poem is very emotional, you are putting yourself out on the table with your newer peices. I respect that. Infact, the reader gets so caught up in this poem, that the rhymes are barely even noticed. (coming from a person who can't help but notice even the smallest internal rhyme) hahaha..


Time does heal wounds, but not in the time that we want or hope it to be. keep your head up bro, my condolences on the misfortune. But what good comes from stayin down, when you know eventually your going to have to get up, so are you going to get up now? or later? easier said than done i know. But it may motivate you broski.

much loven' respect

-Lalli

[Kena Dawn Augustine]

I was confused; did you write this, or did seh write this? either way, it was good. I loved the metaphors you used, and the whole piece in general. here are some of my fav parts:

Waiting........
I wait for him to see my entirety
To swim inside of my love that I present to him
passionate, repeatedly tested, wrapped inside of an unpenetratable gift box nested just for his unwrapping, it's needing, loving, interruptingly trusting though intuitively psychic
disgustingly lusting, just how he likes it......(AMAZING PART. I LOVE THAT)


We mother even the fathers!!!! (THAT'S TRUE. I FELT LIKE I WAS A MOTHER TO MY EX, HE WAS THE CHILD. LOL)

[ANNA]

My Brjden, Yet again you lay out your heart. I don't want to leave this short and sweet for your pain and love and strenght cut a piece of my heart. A part from this coming together as amazingly. I feels like I know more and more about you each time you post a new poem. I wish I could hear you read this. I don't know what you have gone through but I don't. Although, their are many that do.

What I liked about this piece is that you came in writing about yourself and capture the voice of this woman who needs for you to let her sweep your pain and hold your tears. I really felt as if she was talking through the computer screen for all the man who are scared to share there pasted. If a woman really loves you, she would never judge or cause you anymore pain then what has already had done. She wants for you to not just see it and know it but to listen to the singing of her soul for you!

Beautiful...Your are turly captivating sweets
Love n respect,
Anna

What's wrong with men?
If God made them any dumber
they would live underwater with gills & swimming fins! .............hahah It's true!!!!

[passion]

so, if i recall correctly, i told you in a previous review not to be looking in my window before you write. i see now that i also should have told you not to tap my phone. this piece is so close to my heart that i don't know where to begin. i had a very similar conversation with someone who is very dear to me but he absolutely won't let me in because of losses that he suffered. now i'm the one suffering. i can only hope that one day, time WILL heal both your wounds and his and that you can really love this woman.

Doesn't he know that if he gave himself to me completely I wouldn't pain,

but lovingly care for his heart and tame

the misery that he desperately holds claim!

I would love him tremendously

trembling the spirits of his divorce!

Blessing his force with my ye yo

and giving life to his NEXT LIFE

with me as his halo!

if she believes that she can and is willing to love you like that, maybe you can get your happily ever after...who knows? beautiful write tho. and stop eavesdropping on my conversations!!

[just is]

Heartfelt and so sad, I know about them divoces been through one. I can feel your write here, you did this so well. Such a powerful write here.

[Jacqueline]

This poem is really heartfelt and poweful.
You convey this story with such emotion.
Its almost painful to read, but in a good way.
Great job.