I Stay Far Away so the Two of Us Can Exist.

I stay far away so the two of us can exist. Being too close causes friction, and stepping away has become my survival tactic. It is how I preserve our peace, ensuring you can grow and shine without destructive conflict. I love you enough not to suffocate or stress you...

I am deeply devoted to you, yet emotionally exhausted. I constantly yield, compromise, and let you have your way simply to avoid the continuous, draining friction of our differences...

No matter what track we are on, I find myself letting you have the upper hand. I step back to satisfy your need to be right, dominant, and emotionally victorious each time...

It is depressing, and at times, I am consumed by a quiet fatigue. I am exhausted by your inability to share space, compromise, and meet in the middle. You lack the common sense of peaceful coexistence; your selfishness and inability to engage in practical give-and-take are quietly ruining what we could be...

No matter what road we walk,
I am always the one
forced to surrender the final word,
to let you win,
to let your emotions stand taller than mine,
just so another storm does not arrive...

It is exhausting
to love someone
who only understands partnership
when they are standing above it...

So I stepped back,
hoping distance would protect
what closeness keep wounding...

Being special to me is not the same as knowing how to love me back. You struggle to understand what a peaceful partnership looks like. You are emotionally immature in your own way, and yet… I am still here...

I tried to give up on us a long time ago, but love wouldn’t let me. I tried to stop caring for you so intensively, but love has remained stronger than my logic. My emotional attachment to you remains too strong to break completely...

I guess it is a bond beyond convenience. It feels almost spiritual, unavoidable, fated. I support your journey, and I want you to succeed. But you are the chosen one whose path makes loving you so difficult...

So, I choose separation. I choose to love you from close distance. Carrying the weight of loving you
has made mine heavier.
You fight to be right
even when being right
costs us peace...one thing you still lack
is the simple wisdom of coexistence...the ability to meet halfway.
The maturity to share emotional space.
The understanding that love
cannot survive where compromise never lives...You reach for victory
while I quietly reach for harmony... I am tired of surviving the imbalance of it...

Yet even through frustration,
through silence,
through emotional bruises no one else can see,
my heart refuses to abandon you completely...

I tried a long time ago.
God knows I tried...

Love…
would not let me go...

Still, I remain here...loving you carefully,
so neither one of us collapses
under the weight of what we could not learn together...

You are still the chosen one on a difficult path.
And loving you
has never been easy...
But, I love you enough to let the two of us continue to exist...
Carl Nicolas.