Erasing Consequence

Time is cut off,
like the airway to my breathing
is crumbling who I am.
I swim on the shallow side of day,
yet I keep drowning,
pulled by fear of my mistake.
All I ever wanted
since my parents left me stranded
was the chance to be accepted.

Given care.
Given opportunity.

I admit my decision might be regret.
I am betraying the next generation,
not allowing a heartbeat to continue.

Deception still twists my dull mind
and I can't take another word.

I have chosen
- Death.

No longer will my past linger
as shadows taunt a weary moon.
This burden I will soon dismiss
is worth fighting for, I understand.
But it also sheds a deadly voice.
One that wouldn't leave
because I show responsibility.
For life.

No more pain,
I can't take a depressant
to numb by thoughts.
I have to let go.

Of everything
and everyone.

There is no second chance.

Author's Note

why does no one understand me