I try to remember

Old poetry with are-write. Written in 1992/rewritten in 2014

                        I try to remember

I tried to remember the curves of your body.  Us blindfolded  by wild need and want on the cold days of Winter.
I want to remember my hands touching soft and wanting skin. We were sweeps away by the chaos of the night and we held each other in a lingering silence till the morning light.

We had our dirty ashtrays and empty bottles of Jack Daniel whiskey. You would smoke your cigarettes and told me, sitting nude upon the soft bed.  If I had the sea, I'm free. I want us laying upon a quiet beach. You writing poetry and I adsorbing the tropical sun. I'm tire of the madness of Winter. I want to be outdoors sitting with the trees.

I tried to erase the memory of you. All I can see in sweet dreams is two people wrapped together. Only the two heartbeats interrupting the long night. Words were not necessary for us. We were complete for I saw the highway and dreams in your eyes and you saw me needing you too much. I was hanging on to paradise by a thread and you were planning your escape.

When the dreams are kind. I find you again. Your eyes are still bright and hopeful. We fall together like children unafraid of love and  I would tell you. You were my shining star. You made me understand. Love was real and powerful.

Sweet dreams turn to nightmares than nightmares turn to sweet dreams.  Time and distance make the pain seem less. It is sad we learn too late. Love isn't fair. Need two people at the same place with the same needs. Rarely will happen.

What would I give to find you in real life. To find out did you find the dreams and goals you wanted? For now the memories of a beautiful German girl who stole my heart can still sneak-up on me. Making me wish for things I cannot have.


                             Coyote/John Castellenas


 

Author's Note

A re-write from 1992. I hope you enjoy.

Reviews

[Yours Truly]

Vivid piece, very easy to visualize the way you describe it all. I hate dreaming about certain people from the past and how it can bring up so much emotion and feeling with it too. Beautifully written though,
Enjoyed reading very much.
-Yours Truly

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you for reading and the comment. Some people and places cannot be forgotten.

[MsJewel]

Bittersweet and beautiful. You have touched my heart with this stunning romantic piece.

:) Julie

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Julie for reading and the comment. I always appreciate you stopping by.

[Bright Ocean Star]

Coyote, this is a very sad, romantic tale of love lost, two ships in the night set on different courses of trajectory...very sad, indeed. Nice write, but lost love is never a happy event...

[Coyote Poetry]

Was a long time ago. Now a good distance memory. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[Corset]

gorgeous, to say more would make me redundant.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Corset for reading and the kind words. I do appreciate.