I cried and I die

Just words

                                     I cried and I die.


Once we held love over all things. I remember us. We disregarded the ending for the days and nights of love.
I was your Hemingway and you were my Agnes.

I remember you. You were the most beautiful woman I ever seen. You healed my damage heart and mind. You taught me how to dance and how to enjoy and taste the sweet German Fall wines and the whiskey. You made my life slow down and enjoy the  sweetness of life.

You were my kind and sweet muse. With you near. I was going to save the world and love was everything. You were my everything in a world going mad.

In late Germany Fall of 1978. You asked me. Please live with me and be my love. Let's lock the door, light some candles and you and I. Let's dance together to Leonard Cohen songs and become one in the glory of love embrace and kisses.

Fall fell in Spring. Spring fell into Summer.  Life, Army and war seem to strip away our wall of safety. Our safe and cozy apartment couldn't hide us no-more. I saw in your eyes. You were becoming a cage bird and I was trying to lock you in. I saw in your eyes. Great dreams, great need to travel and more education. One day we decided. Our love was built on quick sand and moving sea was dying.


On a early Summer rainy day. I left you with my books and my journals. I remember this night still. I cried and I die.  Hard souls man learn. You cannot do it alone and I was alone.

Dear Daniela.
You taught me.
Blessed be the man who knew love and enjoyed the wine and the drink.
Blessed be the man who tested life and traveled.
Blessed be the man who had lived.
You were my savior and my teacher.
Thank you my love. Thank you dear Daniela.

                        John Castellenas/Coyote

Author's Note

Just words.

Reviews

[Wórdsmíth]

Agreed here with your words! I believe, there's always a woman or her love that drags a man straight to the apex of success. It's always woman, who caresses a man with her vulnerability, soothes his aches with sugary words, and fumbles the heart with much faithfulness... so i guess, your poetry is well depicting the persistence of woman here. Nicely penned. Your poetry are more like something that i kinda enjoy reading every time i visit this site.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you my friend. I appreciate the comment.

[Wórdsmíth]

You're welcome. Is that you and daniella in pics?

[Coyote Poetry]

Yes she is. Now 40 years ago.

[Wórdsmíth]

And she must be your wife. Right?

[Coyote Poetry]

No. Left her in 1980 and I came back to Michigan. We were both just kids.

[Wórdsmíth]

I see. She's been quite pretty. Hope she's happy with her husband... and you... with your wife I guess, it's.. Jenny? Right? lol Ah, excuse my words.

[Coyote Poetry]

Neither. I found a woman in Central America. Been with her 22 years.

[darkangle]

love the poem

[Paradox]

You say these are JUST WORDS??! How affectionate, how emotional ur writing is!
Its like a memoir, well written!
Great work. I felt for u at the end. Great

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Paradox. I appreciate the comment.

[~Sarah~ Idríel T..]

She has had a great impact on you and your writings. I have noticed that in your poems, her name is praised.

The life tastes both sweet and bitter.

Thank you for sharing it.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Sarah. Real first love is never forgotten.

[Mystery]

Surreal honestly everything fit together so well

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you for reading and the comment. I do appreciate.

[Alice Maria]

A lot of emotion put in for just words. It was a wonderful read.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Alice. I appreciate the comment.

[Alice Maria]

You are welcome

[Jes' Pi]

I wanted to review this poem a long time ago, but I forgot about it and yes...
But now I will review it.

I liked the words A LOT, and the images too. I always give more points when the images are chosen well.
Very beautiful...please tell me where did you get the images!!!

[Coyote Poetry]

The photo is of me and my Daniela. A German girlfriend in 1978-1979. Thank you for reading and the comment.

[Jes' Pi]

She is very beautiful.

[Coyote Poetry]

She was. We were just kids.

[Jon Roggie]

Thank you Daniela.
You added to the the Coyote we know.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Jon for reading and the comment.

[Mr.Writer]

As usual, amazing! The way you flow your poem and add the pictures, it's soo creative! Keep it up coyote poetry! You never fail to leave a smile on your readers, especially me! :D
My favorite line was...
"You were my kind and sweet muse. With you near. I was going to save the world and love was everything. You were my everything in a world going mad."
It was beautiful... You were my everything... it made me shiver and kinda feel warm... Amazing job!! :) Keep it up! Keep making us smile :)

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you my friend. I appreciate the comment.

[Mr.Writer]

Np :) Keep it uppp

[Surya]

Actually words doesn't convey anything, but emotions behind those words say it all...and each word here of your's conveyed more than words....I liked it, Keeping sharing sir John Your stories...I wanna taste life...hahaha..:)

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Surya. I appreciate the comment.

[Kenneth The Poet]

I think your verse has improved with time, Coyote. Your sentiments are clear, evocative and heartfelt. I like this piece.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Kenneth. I do appreciate the comment.

[Najam Us Saher]

This is very heart touching. I really liked the way this poem was blended well with emotions and story both were perfectly balanced.

[Coyote Poetry]

Thank you Najam. I appreciate the comment.

[Najam Us Saher]

You are most welcome ☺