My blood

I wrote this last week, after I had a panic attack because of personal problems and I fell back into self harm.

My blood flows down to the ground,
There’s nothing left that can be found.
I cry, I tremble, all alone,
The cruel life caught me, and won’t let go.

I’ve again lost my mind,
And I don’t know where will i find
A way to stop this pain,
As I cut my skin, losing all strength in vain.

Oh, where are you? The one to stay?
Who will hold me close, taking the pain away?
Wiping my tears, I search all around,
But you’re not here, the one I ask for, unfound.

I can’t see. I can’t see this filthy world.
Did I die? Or am I just caught in a swirl?
My blood flows down to the ground,
But I truly don’t know where I’ve been bound.

My blood just keeps flowing, flowing away,
Please, love, don’t forget me, I pray!
Don’t forget, even if I’m gone,
But please, stay by my side until I’m done.