2AM What If thoughts

A silent hope to grow up and become someone I can admire ~♡

Sometimes I wonder what it could’ve been like 

if I had chosen a different path in life.

If so, would I have laughed more? loved more? 

Or felt more at peace?

Would people smile more if they looked at my face? 

And if so, would they pull me into an empty embrace? 

Tell me sweet things just for good grace?

While I try not to stare into outer space, 

look for answers in the stars 

and ask why I was born this way.

Why my choices feel wrong,

and I feel so strange?

Is this not where I’m supposed to be, 

or did I miss a turn unknowingly

If I could, I’d go back, fix the broken bridges, 

and open up a new path.

Path to the version of me who was everything I dreamt to be 

Someone who laughed more, 

loved more affectionately

Where I was worthy of the love people depart to me.

I’d mould myself in a different way, 

soften the walls I built just to feel safe.

Become sharper and braver, be my favourite flower.

If I could just turn back time, I’d be a lot kinder, 

wilder, live my life every hour, hold no regrets 

and be my own sunflower. 

          

                                                                                               ~♡

Author's Note

I'd like to make a song recommendation here lol, do check out Sunflower(movie version) by Shannon Purser <3