No Going Back

I have seen the face of there is no going back
Wiped away the tears of hate
Held the hand of addiction's bitter hatred
Ripped the mask from a lie's
Own face

I have reached way up to touch the bottom
Said goodbye, then returned
To feel my heart break one more time
When the fingers of my regret
Got burned

I have walked in the darkness of I can't feel
Because I choose not to
Fell face down and bumped my head
On every feeling I numbed
From truth

But I saw the face of I can still go on
Looked into my own eyes
Crawled out of darkness in such pain
Even those empty spaces
Made me cry

I am no different than you or you from me
We both carry our own pain
I only know that now I choose to feel
Enjoy my life with no regrets
In light remain

Author's Note

This one is about as raw as I can get for now.............

Reviews

[FJ Davis]

A triumphal journey, vividly described. Pain transformed into joy; depression trounced.
Darkness is for concealment--very infrequently, for recovery. But in the end, dear lady--no matter how excruciating the journey, how seemingly comforting, the dark--we, if we truly want to live, have nowhere else to go but the light. It is that universal beacon declaring "home."
As for your terrible ordeal, Neva, I'm so glad you made it back.
Your lovely, soaring poetry is a gift hard-earned--and ultimately, a precious gift to the world.
Thank you, for persevering.

[Mark]

A wise man once told me to love without exception or expectation. That way there will never be regret.

I'm not sure he's entirely correct, but it's a great place to start from.

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I feel you..because you could being writing my life right now too.. I don't think I have related more to a piece in recent months..it felt almost uncanny!...However feelings aside..you have managed to convey that moment when you let go, with all the dark, deep feelings associated with it. to then show the understanding and hope you still hold..because you have to don't you? and no regrets..touched me...thanks..

[Art Sun]

awesome work Neva...the pain of reality can hold one still yet there is always that road of return...nice

[iamkim]

Wow! This is very beautiful! How did you come up with a very brilliant poem like this? I'm jealous.

There were times in my life where I hesitated to go on and live life once again after being hurt. The memories of the past just kept on pulling me back. For how many days and for how many nights I have suffered the pain, the sorrow...but one day I saw the hope...the hope that kept me alive until the present time.

Excellent poem!

[White Ink]

Sensational! great piece!

[John Jackson (El Juero)]

Absolutely spot on! Life is.......... good.


thank you!

[J.T. Decker]

The last stanza spoke to me. No one knows what it's like to be anybody but themselves. It's easy for me to get wrapped up in trying to relate with another's problems. Even though it seems selfish at times, we must "carry our on pain" because the weight may too heavy to carry for two. I think you poetically captured the plight of those with hearts bigger than their pride.

[Jake Staffeld]

The battle against pain is well repersented. I liked the feeling of there being a ceiling that you couldn't break.

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

We err as humans, it is how we deal with it that makes us who are... no point living in the past when we can make the present better...


I am no different than you or you from me
We both carry our own pain
I only know that now I choose to feel
Enjoy my life with no regrets
In light remain

I give a big AMEN to that.

[Audrey Howitt]

A very powerful statement of the truth of feeling in a painful world. Well done!