Community

On hate inside the queer community, (another un-edited piece I'm afraid)

There is something in community that for me just radiates love

like a trusted hug that word can wrap around you

I try to surround myself in it

it is something I cherish.

Community to me is the safety of a weighted blanket

It's something not everyone needs but regardless is a comfort

it's the illusion nothing can ever hurt you

like a duvet stopping a knife

and I know what your thinking

well probably

like wow that just got dark

what do you mean community can't protect me?

Sorry

I guess that comes out a bit wrong 

what I'm saying is community is a safe space.

Personally I love safe spaces.

I like to know there is somewhere I can go where I exist.

Because fighting my 'friends' over my own identity

is akin to fighting myself at times

but I let that go

never let it show until they brought it up again

and I'm afraid to ask the big question 

if you don't believe in non-binary

then what does that make me?

In community that shouldn't happen.

That is, in my opinion.

because the world is no safe space

but we can always carry mace

just use it wisely.

But when we come home we put down our weapons

or at least try to

but we're jumpy

it's easy to be scared

but community is our hospital bed

where your mind is cleaned and fed

please don't take that from me.

confusion is ok

obliteration is easy

easy to confuse

with clarity.

So in a roundabout way

what I mean to say

is please keep community 

my definition of safety.