The subtleties of heartbreak

The lonliness is deep within my soul
I can't seem to escape it,
wandering the streets
and feeling lost as the moon shines down
upon my back.
You have made me who I am,
You have inspired me.
And still you continue to inspire me,
but not in ways I ever would have wanted.
Only the thought
of your heavy hand

striking down upon my skin
and loving touch

within my mind
can offer solace.
I cry, even as I write,
Broken,
feeling alone....
wondering what will become of me.
I don't think I can be Yours.