What We Are

I don't remember if we were ever friends.

I’m not sorry to say
I’m sick of this ride
Through your emotions,
A raging tide.

I hang on tight,
Because I remember
Moments of us
Before September.

We’d stay up late
And speak so openly
Without concern
Of something heavenly.

Because this God
Is nothing between us.
When all the while
This was just a fuss.

The constant insults
And lack of regret
“I’m only kidding”
Doesn’t lessen the threat.

Then you’re gone
Expecting me to follow.
Finding where you are.
Never felt so hollow.

Always calling you
With no reception.
When I heard your voice,
A hint of deception.

The tricks you use
To make me green
I have friends, too
And they’re not unseen.

So don’t try and act
As if it’s okay.
I’m a real person,
Not a doll to play.

I don’t work on your behalf
And it’s hard to keep track of
Your changing schedule
And your nonexistent love.

I do sympathize with you
And what you suffer.
But it’s hard to feel sorry
When you’re so much tougher.

You say if I am a friend,
I’d stay with you.
But maybe I’m not,
And neither are you.

Author's Note

A sort of rant about an old friend of mine. I'm just jaded now, after all of the betrayal and her bipolarity. I just don't want to be controlled by her moods anymore. And so, I don't speak to her because I don't want to fall back in with her disease. I really like the lines "I hang on tight, Because I remember Moments of us Before September." It just says so much (how I wanted to stay her friend in hopes of having more memories like that and the fact that we were friends before September).

Con-crit is needed (especially in the middle and near the end).

Reviews

[LisetteCanWrite!]

Very well-written and honest... great flow and show of emotions!!! Yes, sometimes we do have people are us that are like a roller-coaster and it can even begin to affect our own behaviour if we stay around these people.. you have to decide if their friendship is worth that ride!!! I have known that type of rollercoaster personality but have to because I have a child with him.. my daughter is a little more balanced thank goodness and she's now 18.. I no longer have to deal with him!!!! (as much!)

[Meredith Leigh]

Wow, I love this. How real it is, and how beautifully it flow's despite the fact. It's just got that strong feel to it, that let's me feel the emotion put into it.
This sounds SO much like a situation I was in not too long ago, as I read it closer and the author's note.
Either way, great write!!

- Kriss

[Lady leah]

Not really sure abt this.