The Awakening

Denying love because of the associated connotation is like a self-induced coma.

Rising out of a rigid slumber

My vision swimming, my ears ringing

I think I hear a distant voice 

All energy is depleted

Gently tracing the tubes on my neck

Connected to dormant coils underneath

Drained of all power by this drug

I once thought I had needed

I signed up for this numbing procedure

Designed to secure, to protect me

If I restricted my soul to a comatose state

I could never fall for you again

But what if I was meant to love you

There are so many shades and varied degrees 

What if I've denied a prism of beauty 

To only keep out the scarlet red 

Ripping the cord from the back of my neck

It will inhibit me no longer

The hindered thoughts now allowed to trickle

Into a raving, rushing stream

Is it wrong to permit the warm excitement

To course through these icy veins

Am I wrong to enjoy the tingling showers

Let them rain all over me

The high shrill is slowly fading

The voice has become sweetly familiar

My heart swells; I give a joyful cry

I don't even attempt to refrain 

No longer ashamed of my human nature

All this time I thought it was wrong to feel

I was only repressing my organic reality

I can be content in the rain

Author's Note

The word Love has such a sticky connotation to it that it sometimes hinders our ability to let loose. You can love a friend, a pet, a partner. All different fragments. What happens when you allow yourself to explore and examine those fragments? Love may not be as scandalous as you once thought.

Reviews

[LastMonth]

Quite thoughtful.
You teach us that sometimes, Human nature is not a bad thing.

When we discuss human nature we often think about the worst of it,
The violence, the greed, the lust.

Is it not human nature to love? To care?
To squeel at a young kitten?
To want to be embraced, and to squeeze tight?

We are the loneliest creatures in our hearts, because we crave love so much more then any other creature. We need it as much as we need oxygen, we need it to live. And that is what you've shown us in this poem. That blissful moment when you just let go and let chemistry, nature and your heart do its work.

Good one.

[Cobblestone Traveler]

Thank you so much for your kind words and your thoughtful review!

[Emily]

Lovely poem!
Keep it up!!

[Cobblestone Traveler]

Thank you so much!!

[GalaxyGhost]

The 4th and last paragraphs are my favorite verses! I like how this poem is questioning love and all about it and then having a contrast to machine because machines cannot replace the human heart that truly loves.

[Cobblestone Traveler]

I'm so glad you enjoyed it! Forcing artificial emotion only causes the soul to be robbed of its nature.

[barleygirl]

Your message is clear & relatable (choosing to avoid the messiness of love), yet also a bit cryptic & mysterious (tubes & cords & whatever lifelines these represent). The last stanza is especially strong and meaningful: "no longer ashamed of my human nature" and "repressing my organic reality."

This message not only relates to love in real life, but it can also resemble the process of writing about feelings . . . we instinctively hold back or try to manicure the expressions into submission . . . but the best writing is when we cut loose & stop worrying about how it's going to come across.

[Cobblestone Traveler]

Thank you so much for your perceptive review! Much appreciated!

[Nisreen]

I love this Line ..... Maybe i was meant to love You
I Also have grown accustomed to deny my soul this love
Stubborn love
I love The image You have placed here
There is No escaping this feeling

[Cobblestone Traveler]

Thank you! Agreed, it is very stubborn. Denying it does not make it cease to exist.

[Nisreen]

Just makes it that much stronger .... and leaves you feeling helpless on one too many occasions

[Davidgeo]

To me this poem was all about masturbation.

[Cobblestone Traveler]

I'm really intrigued and delighted with your interpretation. Ha! Thanks so much for reading.

[Cobblestone Traveler]

Maybe I should revisit the title? :P

[Davidgeo]

What's wrong with Masturbation?

[Cobblestone Traveler]

Absolutely nothing. I love how the whole poem makes sense with that interpretation; makes me curious about the way my mind works. ;P It's just that I pictured the person in a hospital bed awakening and deciding to ripping her IV out, so I wanted to make the primary intention a little more clear.

[Davidgeo]

Either way... it's auto, whatever, self fulfillment. It's a good poem even for non pervs.

[Cobblestone Traveler]

I thank you