Logbook Of A Scavenger - January 10 2026

I certainly have a grandiose torpedo to fire at you. Lol... Drum roll please. I'm texting Sydney. Yeah. I absorbed her number last night and my heart was about ready to shoot out of my hardened forest. Like when I revealed who I was, I thought I was going to have another Claire night. Ya know, I was dry heaving. I was always craving that clarity either or not she stopped putting spiritual meat into Casa Grande because of me. Well, she finally replied with a fireplace aura. She was telling me that I was a ray of sunshine and I always made her day. And she actually stopped working there because she's an elementary teacher. She truly is made out of maple syrup. Isn't she? I was definitely gliding down an amethyst passage during the silhouette hours I guess. God answered. Uh... She thinks I crash landed to Maryland... Because remember, I sent that FB message several months back. Lol. I THINK she works at the Portsmouth Elementary School. So I might pound the roadrunner up there on Monday and maybe around 2:45, she'll be outside. It's all one big maybe.

I gorilla glued a mussel shell that I got from Turkey Creek Lake to my frontal lobe...

 In a lot of ways, I really am throwing my soul into a torture chamber. Me and Sydney will never be. Ya know, a girl like Sydney would never date a guy who's on disability. I mean, it wasn't even my organ to begin with back in 2017. She asked me where I was working at and I just kind of ignored it and I gave birth to a poem about her. I called it "God's Best Seraphim". She did SEEM to like it. I did have a job... For almost 5 years. Ray had a date with the Grim Reaper and everything. Got a new manager. Psychopathic Oompa loompa Mandy didn't like me and now here I am... And my parents act like something catastrophic is going to happen if I go back to work. I could go on forever about the work realm. Lol. I am technically able to work. Just that the puppet masters around me don't want me to. "IF YOU GO BACK TO WORK! YOU'LL LOSE EVERYTHING!". So yeah. I'm very insecure about me not having a job. By this point, this is beyond "If I get a girlfriend around here then I won't be able to crash land to a better island". This isn't Sandra, Claire, Jennifer, or Pam we're talking about. This is Sydney. The girl that deep down, I actually wanna date. I just know that the more she finds out about how I have my limbs cut off. The more it would be an absolute no. I could be wrong but I'm sensing that she has too much projectiles in her life to be bullseyeing a boyfriend. She was even kind of puking lava a bit on how chaotic her life is at the moment. Which is totally on a comfortable cloud. If you got too much going on in your life then yeah, not wanting a boyfriend would make sense. So I am on top of a mountain that I never once asked her out. DEEP DOWN, I want to. I just know it wouldn't be cool. So AT THIS POINT, I don't know where to fly from here. The portal to Sydney is pretty wide but I know not to ask her out. So it's like what do I do? Outside of trying to be in her atmosphere at school one time(I know that sounds sooo wrong out of context. Lol. She's a 25 year old teacher), there's not much I can really do.. Do I just stop talking to her and leave it on "good terms"? That is the most rational one... Either way, a girl like Sydney would NOT wanna date someone like me.