sadness within

the first poem i wrote that got published in HS

now that this is over,
are you gone forever,
do I have to see your face one last time,
To want your sweet embrace,
Do I get to know your kind of happiness,
Or do I have to forever know my kind of sadness,
Will he ever find me,
Am I hidden from the world,
or just his eyes.

Falling faster,
Never stop spinning,
Never dead,
Always alive,
But why,
When will I hit the pavement,
the hard ground,
To feel the pain of this already broken heart,
To feel it on my body,
Not just this heart,
To forget the inside pain,
To worry about the outsides that suffer.

To forget this pain,
To treasure the sun,
Tired of darkness,
Tired of sadness,
Tired of feeling like theres no way out,
But I know there is.

Im free,
Dont want to be,
Wheres your heart,
Your mind,
Your soul,
You gave it all to her,
Left me in the cold,
Will I feel warmth,
The ability to never shiver,
when im cold,
and alone in the dark...
 

Will you bring the light and shine through the cold....