a moment of release before I try again to pick up the silver lining in the cloud

RIGHT NOW
I FEEL LIKE THROWING THIS .......  COMPUTER
OUT THE WINDOW

RIGHT NOW I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS
FOR EVERYONE TO LEAVE ME ALONE
STOP ASKING ME TO BE STRONG FOR ALL OF YOU
I CANT BE STRONG FOR ME RIGHT NOW

I READ THE HEADLINES
SEE THE COMMERCIALS
CHILDREN IN AFRICA
CHILDREN IN AMERICA
CHILDREN IN NEED
PEOPLE IN NEED
PEOPLE OF GREED
AND I AM OVERWHELMED WITH THE WANTING TO HELP
BUT I CAN'T HELP ALL

JUST ONE PIECE SOME PEACE
IS ALL I ASK
AND I WRITE ANONYMOUSLY
BECAUSE I CANT TELL THOSE WHO DEPEND ON ME
THAT I AM SPENT
CAUSE WHERE WOULD THEY GO?
AND WHAT WOULD THEY DO?

I WANT TO GO SOMEPLACE WARM
AND WITHOUT WANTS
AND NEEDS
JUST DRINK UNTIL I SURRENDER TO THE NOTHING
FOR A WHILE

BUT I HAVE TO TAKE A SHOWER
AND GO TO WORK
WHERE THEY NEED ME TO TELL THEM
THAT IT WILL BE OK