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Quick Tip: Never pray on your emotions. If you want an answer from God come to Him with thanksgiving. You may not know everything that He has done for you, but He does.  

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.

Philippians 4:6

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My grandfather has a serious illness.

He’s lost the use of his legs and right arm.

I was sitting in the car with him last week and he asked me how school was going.

I told him it’s been going great and that I’ve been making all As’.

After he congratulated me he said, “I’m glad everything is getting better for you, I wish I could say the same about my sickness.”

I responded with, “I think it’s getting better, I think you’ve come a  long way.”

He then said, “I just feel like it should be over by now.”

After he said that my heart sank.

I couldn’t find the appropriate words to say.

All I could say was, “yeah.”

And now he was on my heart.

And I couldn’t get him off.

It felt as if every burden he held was mine and I got really REALLY depressed.

But I didn’t realize it at the moment.

I just thought I was depressed about my own problems.

So I got home and I cried and I sat and thought about everything in the world that made me sad.

This lasted all night, but when I woke up in the morning I felt better.

A lot better actually, so I prayed.

Quick Tip: Never pray on your emotions. If you want an answer from God come to Him with thanksgiving. You may not know everything that He has done for you, but He does. 

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.

Philippians 4:6

And this happy prayer lasted about a hour and a half, I’m a very thankful person.

So as I smiled and prayed and laughed with God about everything He brought my grandfather to mind.

And I prayed for him.

I prayed that he would be healed, and I said Amen.

So around 8am I got up and started getting ready for my day.

And to my surprise my grandad was still on my mind.

At this point I was like, “really God!?”

God was  like, YES, REALLY!

He then brought to my memory the words of James 1:27.

“Religion that pleases God the Father must be pure and spotless. You must help needy orphans and widows and not let this world make you evil.”

When my grandfather is in need for someone to lift him I cant.

I’m not strong enough and it always requires a man.

When he is need of someone to bath him I cant.

I’m well aware of everything that I cant do for him, and God is too.

But I know what I can do. I can write.

So I went to my computer and I thought about our conversation.

And I wrote him a reminder entitled WAIT.

It’s one of my previous posts, inspired by Lamentations 3:25.

I sent him the photo and I said, “Good morning, have you allowed yourself to wait?”

And just like before, after I sent it to him I felt his burdens.

Except this time, I wasn’t depressed.

I was filled with joy and gladness.

I cried out to God with thanksgiving and as he reflected on that message I know that he did too.

He responded to the text messages with, “My baby. Thank you for praying. Yes, I am going to wait. Love you.”

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My granddad may be proud of me.

But he needs to know that my success is God’s doing.

I am a woman who receives no validation from the world.

All of my confidence and confirmation comes from God.

And my life is simply a constant string of tears, prayer, and gospel.

He needs to know that we are all just waiting.