I'm My Own Worst Enemy

The worst enemy you can have is yourself.

There's a voice inside my head

That always tells me 

"You're not good enough"

"You'll never be anything"

But I always listen to it because

I am my own worst enemy,

I tell myself I'm no good,

No one will ever talk to me

You're always the underdog

That no one really cares about

I'm my own worst enemy because

When I get a compliment I turn

It into a nasty comment,

Because I don't believe in myself

I cut,

I scream,

I listen to music

To drown out the feeling of hating myself,

I starve,

I overeat,

I crash diet

All to kill the pain racing inside of me

I'm my own worst enemy

I hate myself,

I know I can never love myself

Because I take everything into consideration

I feel like no one likes me...

Maybe because I don't like myself...

I'm trapped inside this prison cell,

With no way to get out

Author's Note

My thoughts on what it would be like if I was my own enemy...

Reviews

[Liza]

i think most of us go through this stage of transition; when we know we want to be something but haven't had the training or belief to be in alignment. women fall into self sabotaging actions with the starvation, overeating and dieting because the media serves the masses on whats beautiful and if we don't fit the color, shape, symmetrics and stance of what they advertise - we start punishing ourselves for not being lovable....but then later we discover that this shell is deeper - and life is still too beautiful and precious to allow ourselves to live from the outside in rather than inside out.

[Raven Starhawk]

At some point in my life I believe I was my own worst enemy and perhaps even still that holds a fraction of truth. This was a good write.

[nothingnothingforgetfor..]

id hate myself if i was my own enemy, id actually try to kill me. If that makes any sense at all. Enjoyed this.

[Leave me alone....]

This was amazing. I feel like this sometimes i mean, who doesn't? With the media telling us whats beautiful and what ugly makes us do some crazy things because we don't fit in with the 'beautiful' crowd. But these days, beauty is fake, they edit and change every little thing about those models. They are fake, everything is fake. And we should keep this in mind when we see an add for a beauty product, and when a model is staring back at us.

[donny ingraham]

straight to the point, well written

[~Paedams]

I felt this way at one point in my life. Very well written.

[Canicus]

I like this. honestly I used to feel this way sometimes. but it may just be me but black veil bride songs really changed that.

[The fallen of innocence]

almost every one of us feels that way, it's hard to value yourself. u described this and transformed it into a beautiful poem. good job

[biggerthenu]

nice write young lady

[dutch2lips]

Smiles, I just re-read one of my own pieces and it was over the same subject, how wierd is that?
The words are harsh in your creation, I recognise a lot of things and can relate to them.
Well penned Poet

[Droll Prole]

This is a really relatable poem, I'm so glad I don't feel like this any more.